2009 - 2010

2011-12-20T01:12:00.003+08:00

Position : 8
Total Point: 197
1504 Alicia Kho En Ning 00:21:33.66 041
1502 Liaw Ying Hong 00:23:06.62 047
1505 Lee Jie Wei Rachel 00:26:20.99 054
1503 Kong Sze Ting Jeslynn 00:26:21.08 055
1501 Oi Sok Hian 22 00:26:22.60 056

Position : 7
Total Point: 172
0107 Soh Wan Qing 00:21:37.92 034
0108 Christina Ang Sui Kee 00:21:57.89 037
0109 Loh Hui En Iris 00:23:43.63 045
0111 Teo York Sun 00:26:16.75 056

Position : 10
Total Point: 210
0501 Lim Kang Hui 00:18:49.30 033
0504 William Zhao Zhan Zhi 00:20:33.71 054
0502 Lim Kang Wen 00:21:00.88 059
0503 Tay Wei Quan Andrew 00:21:19.25 064

1003 Chua Ying Zhi 00:18:07.64 048
1001 Tshin Qi Zhou 00:18:45.11 057
1004 Ong Ding Hao Ryan 00:19:40.00 077

2011-12-20T01:12:00.001+08:00

Today was supposed to be my least favourite day of the week, but it was extremely fun. :D
Ms Wong came damn early. Didn’t even have time to take out books from locker. =/
She told us there’ll be a class test :(
A & D was pretty fun. I was in Cheryl’s group. We used her design. Luckily the tchrs gt provide free wire :P
Maths was okay, but Mrs Tan didn’t return us the class test. ><
Did some questions on standard form. Quite easy. :]
CEP was boring, just did admin stuffs.
History tchr cracked jokes again. Sian lahs, too many jokes not funny lerhs. -_____-
ACC was fun(:
The poems were pretty interesting. I wonder why not many people paid attention? O.o
I think its fun, hahaha. :D
Anyway, xcountry training rocked today :DD
Had 3+ KM time trial, 2 rounds around the schl. Sec1s were being tested.
Ended up the last amongst the girls. ><
Neverminds, I can do it :]
I lost to a sec1 girl, bleh. She was damn good, jiayous! :)
My timing was 19:10 . Improved a few sec O:
Insignificant.
Mr Chan actually wanted us to run to Buona Vista, but in the end just ran 2 more rounds around the schl. Abit slack. :D
Then we had target setting fr this year’s annual road run. I aimed fr >15.
I’ll do my best to try to be better than that. (:
After that we had games! Played handball (sort of like captains’ ball). At first was really not in the mood, then started to get better. :]
Thanks Nicholas (can I call you Nick? :]) fr the encouragement :D
I found myself improving like crazy. =/
Hahaha, tmr gt PE, hope playing handball.
Mr Chan joined us, playing against the team I was in.
Had so much fun, and I’m finally improving in my ball skills. O.o
Does that sound wrong? =/
Ball skills. Ahha, shan’t 想歪! :PP
Yays! Can’t wait fr road run, mass games, sports meet & sports day! Woots!~
Esp. as 211 will rock the entire place down! We gonna show the other classes we’re the best! Jiayous~ :DD
Hahaha, I shall end off here. Byebyes!

2011-12-20T01:11:00.002+08:00

Today’s first lesson was Literature. Miss Poon told us to use back our files from last year. Brandon asked if we can throw everything away. LOL. Hahaha.
The poem about sunflowers was quite interesting. :D
After that, it was EL. I didn’t know what my dad works as? O.o
Okay, anyway it was quite okay. I lost my EL book! D:
After recess, it was Enrichment. The Kuen (I think) Wushu Academy gave us a talk. The director was quite funny. Wushu was cool lahs. Lol.
Anyway, my leg hurt and it was so uncomfortable.
=X
Then it was Maths! (:
I love Maths now. Lol. Unbelievable? Well, maybe. I was the girl with ‘LAST STUDENT IN MATHS F9” on my forehead last year. Yepps, it’s that bad. Lol.
It was only one period, followed by Geography. Omg, the class was so super quiet can. Like, I have never seen it ever being complete silence in the class before. Because the teacher is Miss Wong. I think she is okay, I guess. She is stricter than I thought though. Omg, quantity pass I already cannot get still want quality pass?! :O
I AM SO DEAD.
Oh yes, I am. Hello, E9?
Loooool.
Die die must die already. Hahahaha.
Anyway, she asked for the Geography rep, but Miss Fu hadn’t chosen. Someone replied “We have the courtesy to let you choose”. HELLO??! Whattheheck. Want to be teacher’s pet lahhs. -.-
So damn DIAO lahhs.
After Lunch, it was HCL! 黄老师 came in and dumped one whole set of rules and expectations on us. -.-
Okay, not really lahs.
But anyway, he asked us to nominate 3 boys 3 girls for Chinese rep. No idea which kind soul there nominated me. :D
I lost, by twice the amount of votes. As usual, there were people who didn’t vote.
It’s okay lahs. Congrats MH! :DD
&&, thanks loadds to Annabel, Cheryl, Gao Shan, Jesslyn & Glenda for voting for me! (:
Thanks much. :D

But…actually, I’d prefer to be sports rep to being Chinese rep. Yes, there’s absolutely nothing that beats sports! I <3 SPORTS WITH ALL MY HEART. :D
Hm. But it doesn’t look like I have much chance now, since now most people votes by popularity? Nevermind lahs… :(
Although I really would want to be a sports rep, then I can help with activities and bond with the class more! :D
Glenda…I know you really want to be sports rep, and you would definitely get it if everyone has to vote. But I do wish I can bond me with the class, really. But it is okay lahs, I’m not going to sports rep. Even if I get nominated, which is 99.99% unlikely, I will just say I don’t want to be.
Hope you get it. (:
Good luck!

2011-12-20T01:11:00.001+08:00

Today had the open space worksheet. It was on some weird puzzle. =/
I didn’t do it, I was reading a book during the entire period. Almost forgotten that it was PE soon, LOL.
Quickly changed, then went downstairs. Then rmb-ed the profiling forms, so got the key fr YS and sprinted back upstairs. :D
I am so forgetful. ._.
PE lesson was funnnn! :DD
We played handball, some sort of captains’ ball. Quite fun, I haven’t played it for so long!
Hm, gt some comments to make :D
I think MH, YT, KY and some others quite good at catching. And Val is super pro at defending, LOL.
I think I both also okay. (:
Then Mr Chan blew his whistle to tell us something. He pretended to demonstrate what a girl fr a sec4 class did when someone passed her the ball. I thought he was going to give us some good moves or something. Then he went like, “Oh, I don’t want!” in this girly voice. LOL! :D
Damn funny lahs. We fell about laughing. xD
He said so far our class noone liddat. Yepps, we rock! xD
Had so much fun.
During EL, we didn’t do much, just wrote some descriptive stuffs. Gt test at end of month, D:
After recess was Malay. It was okay. Lol, damn tired luhs. =/
Then we went back to class. Mr Chan was there. He gave YT the profiling form. Then he asked me why I never tell him gt people without forms. O:
I didn’t know that some of the girls didn’t have the forms. =X
Sorry Mr Chan, make you go print and print and print. ><
Lol, then it was Maths. It was pretty fun and we were still at the chapter of indices.
Luckily no more Maths test for now. Too many tests already! D:
Bio had practical. We had to do diffusion of agar agar, using hydrochloric acid. I did the practical with Cheryl. :]
It was quite fun, but can’t really see the color. Then had a little quiz. But luckily not counted in the CA1. I made tons of mistakes. =X
But it was fun(:
Cheryl had such nice handwriting. :]
Then went back home because had no CCA! Saw Cheryl & Annabel, then waved goodbye to them. They taking MRT. D:
Wish I go home by MRT, then at least can walk with them. :(
Next 2 - 3 weeks gt so many tests. HCL, Chem, History, Geog, EL. Don’t know got anymore or not.
D:

Okay, before I end off this post, I’ve a few things to say to some people ;]
211 (the girls), THANKS FOR BEING SO NICE TO ME EVEN THOUGH I HAD TREATED Y’ALL QUITE BADLY LAST YEAR. It meant alot to me. Thanks fr telling me things like goodbye, thanks and stuffs. Thanks fr encouraging me and giving me confidence. I love you all! :DD
esp. Cheryl & friends, XH & friends (:
♥211! :D

2011-12-20T01:10:00.001+08:00

Reopening of school!
Omg, so fun! I’m so happy to see everyone again.
When I was walking to school, I kept smiling and felt like bursting into laughter. I don’t know why. Lol. When I neared the back gate, I met Hua Xin. We chatted and walked, then don’t know if is go upstairs or parade square. We went to the 2nd floor, then heard the morning bell. -.o
We wanted to go back downstairs by the other way, but then saw Miss Jesse Lim at the lift lobby. Hua Xin scared of getting scolded because of attire and I was afraid she will tell me to tie plaits. My hair is too short lahs. =X
Anyway, we got to the parade square (avoiding Miss Jesse Lim along the way), and went to our respective classes. And I saw all my friends! Lol, honestly to say, I did miss them. :-)
We have juniors this year! Muahaha. All of them looked so tentative and nervous. I guess I looked and felt like this last year too. (:
Our form teacher is Miss Fu again! And the following are our respective teachers:
Form tchr: Miss Fu!
E-Lit tchr: Miss Poon
Maths: Mrs Tan & Mr Ang
Phy tchr: (I missed it :X)
Chem tchr: Miss Wang
Bio tchr: Mrs Tan
Chinese tchr: 黄老师
History tchr: Miss Yip
Geog tchr: Miss Wong!
PE tchr: Mr Chan!
Art tchr: Mr Cheng & Mr Tan

It’s almost the same as last year, with few changes. Which I am sort of glad. PE teacher is Mr Chan! :D
Okay, I think he is the best PE teacher in NH. So that’s great! And Geography is no longer taught by Mdm Poon, but Miss Wong instead. Thank GOD! :D Mdm Poon is waaaaay too lenient for our good. Haha, that’s good too! Err, for Physics…I’m not sure if it is still Mrs Chang, because I didn’t hear properly. =X
I hope it still is Mrs Chang.
And I don’t know who Miss Yip is. So…overall quite okay.
&&! Welcome our new chairman? Lol, we voted and Yen Shen got the greatest number of votes. I voted for him and Kit Yarn. We still don’t know who our vice-chairman is yet.
I WANT TO BE EITHER CHINESE REP OR SPORTS REP. But I don’t have anyone who will want to nominate me. Unless no one wants the post? :(
Hopefully, some kind soul out there WILL nominate me. :)
Anyway, we also changed our sitting plan. We’re still sitting in fours, and my row consists of Robin, me Leighton, Jesslyn (left to right). Which is fine by me, I suppose. Thank God ___ ___ didn’t sit with me. :O
Whew. Sorry, was that “cyber bullying”?
=X
After all “admin” stuff, we went to the hall and listened to a talk by a Mr Ng and a Mr Ng. (Operations Manager and Council tchr.) O.o
It was about safety, security and discipline.
Then it was recess. I went to the washroom, and returned to the classroom. Wasn’t feeling hungry.
Student Planning, Daphine & Yan Ru came to our class to help out. Our two main choices were: more comfortable chairs & ezlink card to buy canteen food.
Actually, I’d much prefer the FBT choice. :(
But I didn’t vote for it. =X
Hahaha, doesn’t sound like a good student right? Well, I’m planning to start this year folding my skirt. Hehehhes. Anyway, we had the time-table written on the whiteboard for Monday and Tuesday.
Mon: E-Lit, EL, Enrichment, Maths, Geog, HCL
Tues: Bio, Music, PE, Maths, CEP, History, ACC
Need to bring books arh? I didn’t get to buy the Literature book and I lost my EL book. =X
Okay, that’s all for today, I suppose. I’m feeling high!
But I wished I was a councilor. Nevermind, anyway if I was I would’ve quitted. I don’t want to be councilor anymore. :D
Okay…I guess there’s nothing else. Bye, and see you again on Monday! (:

I typed all this at 2 PM just now…but my mum just got injured and she was brought to hospital by an ambulance. I’m not going to type everything in detail. Omg, I am so worried about her. The wound was real deep and…I don’t know! I wish I were the one who was injured…. :’(
Okay bye. I don’t have the mood to blog right now.

2011-12-20T01:08:00.005+08:00

First period today was Chem! One of my fave subjects. :D
Yen Shen very funny lahs! He go say “Class Bow”. So funny caaaaaans. Hahaha. Everyone fell about laughing. :D
It was quite fun. Miss Wang recapped what we did last year, and started on a new topic.
Then, it was Maths. We did more practice on Indices. Had homework. D:
Too much homework lahs. ><
Anyway, today had assembly. It was pretty boring. Glenda and Gao Shan told me they were in ODAC but Glenda don’t want to join xcountry. :( After that, it was HCL. More homework. :(
Next Mon got compo! ~
Test at end of Jan. :(
During Lunch I went to find Mr Chan to help me fill in my transfer class form (for Japanese). Then need school stamp, so Mr Mun went with me to the GO to get it. Yay, finally able to change class. :D
After Lunch was Art. It was interesting! We had to think of ideas to makes lanterns and stuff. FUN :D
Then, had training. The teachers couldn’t come. I didn’t bring my running shoes, but I don’t really mind lahs. Anyway I can’t even feel the difference. Iris told me if cannot feel the difference then got problem lahs. Lol.
We went to the Clementi Stadium. Used parachute. O.o Look damn ridiculous can. Hahaha. :]
I ran 10 rounds only. Mr Mun asked us to run 15 rounds. ><
Iris pro, run 12 rounds. Most of the boys didn’t even run. They just played soccer. T.T
Lol, got stupid stitch! Argh. Iris said running is a form of discipline. Okay, I sort of agree with her. But today really not in the mood can. Then we saw these Japanese students. Haha, I wonder if I can strike up a conversation with them? I guess not, my Japanese is so lousy. ><
Anyway, Iris thanks for encouraging me! :)
Lol. Okay lahs. Nothing much. There’s PE tomorrow! I’m really looking forward to it, hope I will get to be sports rep. ><
Hopefully. (:
And omg, I haven’t brought my tablet PC to the technical support to fix yet. >< Can’t even switch on! :/
Anyway, ___ ___ is so damn retarded! Wanna be teacher’s pet lahs. ><
So much homework. The teachers so cruel! Gahh. ><
Lol, bye.

2011-12-20T01:08:00.003+08:00

First period today was EL. We did a short description essay of the floating market. It was pretty hard, and I only wrote 110 words. =/
The, it was Chem. Chem was funnnn. :D We learnt more on the collecting of gases topic. It was a little complicated. And omg, next week got Chem quiz! :O
Sure die uhs.
Nevermind lahs, just do my best, dun really care much xD
After recess was Enrichment, which basically was watching a video on environmental stuffs. Abit boring lahs. I sat with Jesslyn. Cheryl was damn funny. She kept joking and I couldn’t stop laughing. LOL. :D
Bio came next. We were supposed to do practical but because of o level results coming out, we were excused from it. Yay! I hate practicals. =/
Anyway, basically we just did corrections and stuffs.
After recess was PC. Miss Fu came and spotted the usual group of guys using tablet PC and fooling about. She was sort of angry. =/
Then she did some admin stuff, like class logo & tee.
We got the yearbook 08! :DD
The pics were nice (: but I think I looked retarded. ><
Lol.
Cheryl was practically salivating over that particular someone xD (Lol hope you dun mind me saying this? :D)
HCL was the last period of the day. 黄老师 wanted to do compo but we persuaded him not to. Then his heart softened hahaha. :D
Lol yay. No compo! Whee~
Okay, then got relief tchr. XL, YS, KY, YT and Jaz were like trying to get the class tee settled. Hot Pink! Hot Purple second choice! LOL.
Orange will look damn weird lehs. =/
But actually hot pink will stand out lahs.
After schl, went to the PE staffroom with XH and YJ, to get the profiling forms from Mr Chan. Then XH went to get her tablet PC fixed, but she came back and said that Mr Lau quitted O:
So we walked home together. Thanks XH for chatting with me and making me feel at ease xD
On the way she told me B.Lim quitted. O:
Omg, really. I quite liked her. :(
Lol, dunno lahs. Not much homework today. :]
I suppose I’m going to have to miss training tomorrow, because apparently the MOELC haven’t replied to my request for class transfer. Damnit.
Oh well, I guess I’m gonna have to put up with it. ><
Btw, is tomorrow’s training compulsory or is it the Thursday one? O.o
LOL, I want a chance to miss Japanese! Hahaha. :D
Kkays, gtg. [:
Oh yeahs, please hand in your PE profiling form to me (for the girls) if you haven’t done so! :D , thanks much. (:

2011-12-20T01:08:00.001+08:00

Had PE today. It was superb! :D
Hahaha, 4 VS 4. Not as fun as 5 VS 5, but still great!
One time, I was trying to catch the ball. Then whammed! I slammed into Mr Chan. =X
Sorry Mr Chan! LOL, I’m seriously crazy when it comes to sports, stay away from me! :P
___ ___ asked me what I was doing with Mr Chan ytd. Eh, 狗拿耗子，多管闲事。I mean seriously ask me this question fr what? O.o
Xcountry was just playing captains’ ball, his business meh. -_-“
EL did descriptive essay. I completed it before the lesson, so slacked throughout. ;D
After recess was Malay, which was…pretty boring? I almost fell asleep.
Then very funny, calculator was pronounced as ‘Kharr-khoo-lah-toh’.
Lmao.
Maths was fun. Abit confusing, but figured everything out. (:
Had homework. Mrs Tan gives homework practically every day, lol.
Bio lesson was so boring, I wanted to sleep so badly. I mean, Mrs Tan (diff. tchr) was like, going through everything she taught the prev lesson. ><
After schl had this tablet training thinghy. It was okay, but I forgot to bring tablet. Shared with YT. Thanks! ^^
I never bring tablet to fix again…T.T
Aiyohs, tmr die die also must rmb. :[
Someone remind me. Or maybe I shld write it down on my face? :P
Hahaha, okays.
So much homework, esp. that chinese compo. :(
The ODAC tee damn nice lahs. Maybe I’ll join just fr the quote. To Dare and Overcome. I love the quote so much! xD
Shld I join? Shld I quit Jap? Shld I quit Library? What shld I do? Omg, I’m still so indecisive. -.-
Any suggestions? (:
I love ODAC, I love sports, and I love the ODAC quote.
I hate Jap, I hate the tchr, but I want to work hard at it so I can excel.
I love library & friends, but it seriously is boring, but I love my friends!
And I’m not gonna quit xcountry, because I love it like a mouse loves rice! :DD
Lol.
I can’t join all, because I wun be able to cope. What shld I do??
Suggestions? :)
Oh yeahs, Glenda, if you join ODAC I would most likely join too :D
Lol, kkays. Buhbyes(:

2011-12-20T01:07:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! :D
& HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JESSLYN & WING KWAN :D
Started the day with xcountry. :]
Had games, damn fun. We played Angels & Devils. Wahlao eh, the boys cheated! D:
Esp. William & the Kang twins. They took the cones away frm us and hide behind themselves.
What kind of behaviour is this? -___-
Dun you have integrity?
Neverminds, I’m really particular abt integrity, the game isn’t really important anyways.
it was fun anyway. The girls won in the end.
:D
Then the girls slacked in the washroom.
Damn fun.
But when we came back, Apple tio caught by Jesse Lim cos of attire.
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Then when I walked back to where my class was, so 碰巧，遇到 Mr Chan.
He gave me a look, then asked me where the rest were. I told him that they all come out frm toilet alrd. He probably alrd knew we slacked the entire time in the toilet, but he dun really mind. Sorry though. :X
Had CNY celebration. Ms Fu bought some chocs & dunno what thing fr us. Thanks! ^^
In the end didn’t finish, gave to 210.
Went up to hall, talked with Glenda :D
Lol, can you believe I’m so talkative? No right? (:
Cos, I used to be talkative. That time before PE I was like, shouting: Eh! 2 min alrd!
Then MJ told me it was the loudest he had ever heard me speak. Lol.
That isn’t the loudest I can do :]
I used to be damn loud lorhs. xD
Today damn fun, the chinese department sang songs. Two of them sang 当你孤单你会想起谁 by 张东梁. 黄老师 also sang, but I dunno what song he singing. ><
All the performing arts groups performed awesomely! :D
Then something happened very funny. Neverminds, only those who sit near me knows what it is. xD
Glenda, Gao Shan, and the two sec3 girls sitting behind.
Oh yeahs, then near the end I shouted “211!”. Like so guailan lahs. Then everyone looked at me. :/
Hahaha. Damn paiseh. :X
Lol, cos no one cheer fr our class at all mahhs. Pathetic ehs. :/
Really lahs! Every time gt some performance, will have people cheer fr their classmates. EVEN THE
SEC1S CHEERED.
-.-
Kkays, buhbyes !
Enjoy the CNY holiday, I’m gonna go on hiatus fr now till roadrun & mass games day! :D

2011-12-20T01:07:00.001+08:00

HCL was the first period today. 黄老师asked me for the随笔. I told him I wrote it together with the 习字 in the book. Then at the end of the lesson, he asked me fr my book so he could mark it. He told me
to go and get it from his pigeon-hole at end of the day.
Then it was Maths, which was okay. I didn’t really understand some of it, though. But…still okay. :D
Mrs Tan didn’t give back the test, because Eugene hasn’t taken it.
After recess was Assembly. It was a little boring. Lol, then Mr Mun came and asked me to write my name on some piece of paper. I told him our phototaking was scheduled at 3++ PM, then he told me to ask Ms Fu to put me in another class’ time slot. ><
We had a surprise attire check afterwards.
Yepps, Jun Hao gt caught LOL.
Abit funny. :D
Literature was right after assembly.
Ms Poon went through the “Death the Leveller” poem with us.
The lesson was funny.
Ms Poon was like, explaining that the word “fate” should be neutral. Then she gave an example: “If I marry Jay Chou one day, its fate. So fate is not negative.” Then someone (Patrick I think) said “Pigs can fly.”
LOL! Then Ms Poon the expression I don’t know how to describe. 哭笑不得 hahaha. [:
Then we learnt about similes. It was nice, partly because I like similes & metaphors. Esp. metaphors. (:
Lol, after lunch was EL. We had a few funny paragraphs, LOL. Cheryl & Gao Shan did theirs on Peter Pan, lol. :]
Leighton’s essay was damn nicenice(:
I wonder how he is so good in EL. He can be an author! That’s what I wanna be when I grow up :DD
Hahaha, lol. Thank God the phototaking was at 2 PM, then I could be with 211. I look weird without my specs, so I didn’t take them off.
I started feeling nauseous when EL lesson begin.
And when I took the bus to Bedok Reservoir (to familiarise with the route before the competition), it gt worse. Christina injured her ankle. :(
I had stitch, and it freaking hurt. Thanks Jeslynn fr waiting & encouraging me! :]
5 KM.
Girls will be running 4.3 KM on the actual day, though.
But I’m still nervous. It’s my first competition! =/
It’s on this Saturday. I’m afraid I’ll be the last, but I’ll keep faith till the very end. :D
Wish me good luck! :]
Qi Zhou going to quit xcountry soon. :(
So much homework & pressure. I’m feeling unwell. & stressed. ><
D:
Anyway, I asked Mr Chan if I could join ODAC (outdoor adventure club). He told me to ask Ms Yeo first, but I couldn’t find her. ><
Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Omg, competition. Okay, I think you get the point. I’m super super super nervous. ._.
Mr Mun told us to have normal breakfast & lunch. Like, rice, noodles, bread, banana. He said “Eat your own banana.” , then all the boys laughed. -.-
So sick. Eh.
Lol.
But I’m really very scared about competition. =X
& the bigbig competition is on 25 March. So fast. ._.
Tmr need to bring art paper. Don’t know what we’ll be doing. I’d prefer normal lessons. Damn boring lahs, draw dunno what thing. Okay, maybe it’ll be fun. (:
Let’s hope.
Haha, buhbyes. Wish me good luck fr the coming competition! :D

2011-12-20T01:05:00.000+08:00

Woke up early today for xcountry. We did suicide run! D:
It’s damn tiring cans. I was amongst the last few. Stupid lahs, when I bend down cannot bend up again. Then when I struggle to come up, the others already ran back. That’s why I fail shuttle run! D:
Nevermind, must jiayou! :D
Haha, after training the girls stayed in the washroom and slacked. We didn’t join the morning assembly. (:
Lol, fun lahs. And thanks guys for encouraging me! :D
The first period was Literature. It was pretty fun, but there were more homework! :(
Lol, the teachers are so cruel cans. Nevermind lahs. Then it was PE lesson. Mr Chan asked for sports rep. Glenda told me she didn’t really want to be sports rep anymore so I volunteered. Yay~ Omg, I am so happy cans. But I wonder if Glenda told me that because she wanted to give me a chance to be sports rep?
Anyway, thanks lahs.
And guess who the other sports rep is?! ___ ___ volunteered to be. And he is IT rep, how can he be both reps at the same time? O.o
Omg, I don’t want to work with him can. He’s like, so…
>( Nevermind lahs. I shan’t be bothered by the likes of such people.
Then Mr Chan told us his rules and expectations of us. My, he’s really strict. I hope we won’t make him angry. He also told us a “secret” which I won’t say. :D
Lol. He gave us a list to fill in, which are basically personal particulars and medical stuff. After the lesson, ___ ___ came to me and told me to collect the forms from the girls. As if I don’t know lahs! DIAO lahs. He’s so damn…
Nevermind.
I can’t be bothered with him luhs.
Malay was pretty okay, a little boring though. Oh yeah, something happened that was so funny! When we were supposed to cheer for 211, no one cheered. Then Yen Shen suddenly went, “HIP HIP, HURRAY!” LOL. Very funny lahs! We laughed like mad.
After that was History. Mdm Yip kept making jokes with us. She’s a nice teacher. :D
EL was the last lesson for the day. It was okay. We had to form pairs to write each other’s holiday. I sat with Jesslyn. It was fun, because I could bond more with the class. I tried to chat with Jesslyn, and it was the first successful conversation I’ve had with the class! :D
Haha.
Had Library meeting after school. I love Library because of my friends. :]
It ended pretty early. Anyway, this weekend have so much homework. :(
I don’t really feel like doing. Okay, bye! :D

P.S. I didn’t cyber bully right? O.o

Goodbye.

2010-02-28T21:51:00.001+08:00

I have decided to start anew. http://supressedsanity.blogspot.com

2010-02-25T00:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAIRE!!! :D

2010-02-23T23:49:00.002+08:00

choikang changminnnnnnnnnnnn ♥

2010-02-18T23:05:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHANGMIN! :D (and Park Shin Hye!)
Saranghae ~

Spare me a slice of that cake will you oppa? I want to eat your birthday cake! But you'll eat it all won't you? :(

I hope you don't grow taller this year :O
Don't be sad okay, oppa? DBSK will always be with you even though there are ups and downs at times. You may be the youngest, but you're extremely mature! (Y)
Calm, cool, collected and logical :D

Good luck for your future endeavors (with DBSK) okay! ♥

Hope you had a good time today! :D

P/S sorry posted late. D:

:D

2010-02-14T00:30:00.010+08:00

Happy CNY and Valentines' Day! ♥

Sarangun hajimayo.

2010-02-13T19:28:00.003+08:00

FTI ♥

No matter what I'm going to see them in March if they come. :D I regret so much la, not seeing them in Jan this year. I LOVELOVELOVE them. :( I hope I can see them omg :D

Happy CNY cum V day ;D

2010-02-12T14:39:00.010+08:00

Thank you: (in no particular order)

JINGLIN : Dairy Milk chocs + card
AMANDA : Lollipop
LYNETTE : Card
CECILIA : Card
MS FU : Ladybird shaped wrapped chocs
YAFEI : Lollipop
ZHIXIANG : Laffy Taffy sweets
MR ERIC TAN : Milky Way chocs
XINHUEI : Ferrero Rocher
MR LIU : Peach yogurt o.o
JASLYN : Yupi gummies
MS KOH : Ferrero Rocher
CHERYL : Her sincere heart :D
And someone gave me time out too :D
I have about 7 Ferrero Rochers. :D
And tons of sweets leftover from what I bought and I don't feel like eating sweets :/

Sorry if I left you out or mixed up the gifts coz it was kinda rushed today. :D

I can't bear to eat the goodies! :/ I wanna keep them and treasure them forever. :/ And sorry if I missed you out while spamming giving gifts :/

Chinese was super boring la, it's like a FESTIVE OCCASION and of course we can't concentrate right. But English was awesome. Damn Chinese cut into English -.- Lol. I'm kinda disappointed with my essay, damnit uh. I KNEW I shouldn't have been so overly dramatic and unrealistic -.- But at least I didn't write it was "all a dream" :/ Although no difference also URGH D:

Oh yeah and I was so happy to give my favourite teacher V day gift :D :D :D :D And everyone too <3 But some went for perf :( I haven't given Yanyi, Cecilia, Yenshen, Zhiwei. :/ I think I'll give them on Wedddddddddddd :D :D :D Yahoo I feel the love in the airrrrrrrrrrrrrr. (L)

Anyway today's CNY celebrations was the best ever! I especially love the xiang sheng LOL damn funny la. And I miss Dr Foo and his funny speeches :( Really really miss him. And I'm positively sure that if Yunyin (?) had enough confidence she'd have been the champion.

The DANCE, GUZHENG AND CO were awesome :D

AND OMG LA SORRY SORRY! :D Damnit uh so cool :D Jay Chou and Auntie Lucy and Liang popo (I think Jianle's better :O) and Mo Xiao Ling LOL. :D

But the best part was still xiangsheng and the Sorry Sorry dance (L)

ZOMG LA I LOVE YOU ALL. :D Thanks so much for the V day gifts! Gomawoyo!

And I can finally understand why Glenda loves Ferrero Rochers so damn much :D :D :D

Oh yeah when I took the bus home I passed by SP. Was thinking about how near it was. Maybe I'll choose to go to SP, even though I prefer JCs but there's no JC very near my house :/ SP would be so very convenient..

Inarticulate.

2010-02-10T18:56:00.007+08:00

Today was so-so (:

Anyway, I'm just going to clarify a few things which are starting to grate on my nerves. I'll start off with the tags at 211'09's tagboard. Oh btw, I love a bit of debate now and then, which is why I'm posting this! :D P/S There were other tags of course but due to word congestion I'm leaving them out.

Yorksun: YESYESYES THREETEN'S AWESOME :D

...: Of course u think tt 310 rocks, York sun, u onli haf deems in 310. Your not a loner anymore. Just hope you don't scare them away with ur *****iness

...: *frens

...: Oh im sorry for being mean, but for your information, im just stating facts. She shld only blame herself for being a slut n causing herself not to get a group in the first 2 yeare of NHHS

...: Whose mean? Yes yes, York sun is mean n stupid. Just like a slut, female dawg, *****

...: All the best to finding out who I am. If you don't believe York sun is a flirt, you can check out the 210 blog yourself

At this point I immediately clicked on 210's blog link. Amazing, someone has been using my name to tag unintelligible rubbish such as "I love you Thomas!!!!!". Surely even a fool would realise that the one who proclaimed his/her love isn't me? I snorted derisively before replying.

Yorksun: Lol, yeah you're right, I'm no longer a "loner". And yes fyi, I had problems in the past which you obviously don't know. I would have had friends if I opened up a little more instead of being in my own shell, I realised that and I opened up this year. "Groups"? I don't want one, no thank you. A class should be united not divided. Oh, and btw I don't have to say that my name is being used for flirting, do I. Who in their right minds would actually say something like this??: "I so so so love Thomas!!! He is so cute! I always flirt with him, but he dun like me T.T (or maybe he does :D)" -.-

Yorksun: Oh, and just a little hint, you should adopt my writing style if you want to flirt under my name. (:

The reason I’m only putting your words in blockquotes and not mine is that my words are in the form of sentences and can be formatted into normal-sounding dialogue, unlike your truckload of broken sentences. You don't seem to like punctuation.

...: York sun snapped... N gone max
...: Mad
...: Also,i think you are a loner even in your group. Admit it
...: Interesting choices of people I am. Please try again. :) York sun, spare us a favour and eat faeces will you?
...: Too bad air- KRISMIN, I'm back. And yes, I'm daring, so?
...: York sun is a faker.
...: York sun, do us all. A favour and leave the blog?
...: Nobody wants you here

I should really have quit the conversation at this stage, since it was obvious that I wasn’t talking to anyone who could understand simple English, but I decided to have the juvenile on anyway.

Yorksun: Faker, hmm? Oh how nice, an accusation without evidence, elaboration and explanation. I'm quite sure you're not everybody. You call yourself daring when you don't even have the guts to identify yourself. Ha. "Too bad air- KRISMIN", what a feeble attempt at sarcasm.

...: Wow! Feeble! York sun leant a new word today! Let's. Give her an applause! Now everyone, take out your dictionary and write 'feeble' in your vocab book!!!
...: Oh, I'm pretty sure I stand for everyone
...: Don't worry, I have a lot of evidence, just that it willl be a waste of space. Also, I am fully able to elaborate, thank you ;)

I should have given up trying to get my point across, since I'd be better off speaking to a wall.

Yorksun: I'm so sorry that your English is so limited.

... @ York sun: I'm sorry that your such a fcuking @ss b1tch

Yorksun: Speak english.

...: I guess b1tches just don't understand English. Can't be helped, you can't teach an old dog new tricks

I must say, I didn't expect anyone with that kind of intellect. That person is self-contradicting. Rather than being an annoyance, you were pretty amusing. By the way, do identify yourself. My curiosity has been aroused. What be an imbecile hiding behind a computer screen constantly living in self-denial? Of course, I had guesses on your identity.

Some dislike me, I know. But only a few despises me to the point of wanting to exact revenge on me. Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me. I don't take your words to heart, because I define myself and not others. It's also because you don't make sense either, I can't make head or tail of your demeaning statements.

You definitely have an issue. I don't know what you gain by trying to constantly give me titles such as "loner", "b1tch", dawg", "slut" and by hurling accusations at me. Or by trying to impersonating me which didn't go down very well. I'll probably just continue this conversation with you, because I like debate.

By the way, your mysterious identity is pretty obvious. To me, at least. But I won't jump to conclusions. Not yet.

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I'm done, now, with my rational arguments :D Back to happy happy mood! :D

I shall revert back to good ol' broken Singlish. Lol, let's start off with HCL. The class went positively hyper when - okay, no, once I start typing complete sentences I can't stop! - a relief teacher entered the classroom. Two periods free, so I decided to work on my SRP. Soon it was Math, and we got back our papers! I passed. I was actually aiming for three-fifth of the marks and I got exactly that! But okay la, room for improvement. :/ I'm quite happy eh, never passed a Math test before since end of sec 1.

We missed half an hour of English for the IC registration. :( *suddenly remembers there was homework* Ms Koh was really nice, she gave us Ferrero Rochers! :D Thank you! History afterwards was crappy, scolding session. -.- My essay was one of the ones she picked on! :( Yeah so she was like, "Yours is too short blah blah blah, did you study?" ._. I said no, coz I didn't lol. I studied TOV damnit. :(

Expected a 2, but got 4. Not bad uh I wrote crap still got 4 marks. ._.

Sleepyhead during SS. Then went for math remedial, quite fun. Managed to learn some stuff :D

P/S I've quited cross-country. Tell me if I should jump for joy and cry in a corner? It's like a heavy burden I've just put down, yet that burden contains passion :( Nvm, I shall train myself when time is on my side.

Off centre.

2010-02-09T20:54:00.005+08:00

I need my sanity back.

E. Lit quiz was so-so, left a few blank though. I mean, we can't actually memorise an entire book can we? :/ I can totally relate to Vinod and Saloma, in the sense that I'm also yearning for friendship and acceptance. PE was fun as usual. Physics wasn't as fun though.

Went down for recess, and zoned out on the way. I was so deep in my thoughts that when I saw Mr Chan I only blankly smiled without greeting omg so rude. Ahhh sorry :( But was kinda feeling down, that's why. :/ Completed the Math homework during HCL and Chem (oops). And lunchtime as well. Math was relatively okay, except that I had to constantly keep myself awake.

Oh and I can't wait for CNY celebration. We have normal lessons though. I'm so glad we don't miss English, except for one period. But luckily we have three periods of English on Friday. Oh and we're having the IC registration i-don't-know-what-exactly tomorrow, and it eats into English :( Lol, infatuation? :O

Idk what's wrong with me why do I keep zoning out?! And the workload is weighing me down a lot. I'm losing my sanity soon, and it's not just studies making me stressed.

Why does it matter?

~~I try so hard to be more outgoing, yet most of the time I feel that I might be better off being on my own. Others are being plagued with relationship problems, but all I need is a friend...~~

*

2010-02-08T19:33:00.007+08:00

Happy Birthday JINGLIN! (:

생일축하합니다!!
All the best for everything! :D

Glenda came back to school today! :D
Hahaha missed her lor, 1 week -.- Anyway today was awesome. Started off with English, Mr Kok came to observe us lol. I admire the way he speaks, got rhythm one. Lol -.- Anyway PE was fun, volleyball wasn't as bad as I had expected it to be. :)

Chem was as boring as usual. MDM WANG IM YORKSARN, NOT SOON ._. And we got back our papers! First time I passed omg. Just passed only. Sara imba! ): And Zhixiang very funny uh.

Zhixiang (kisses his test paper in joy)
Xavier (laughs): Zhixiang how much you got?
Zhixiang: (score), first time can show my parents my test paper!

LOL. Damn joke ._.

Malay was a bore. Haha I saw Physics worksheet and Math books appearing everywhere! Physics was, uh, idk. Chionged Math during lunch. Math was quite funny. 11 11 11 LOL. Idk if I should go on Wed or Thurs leh the remedial. But I have another remedial on Wed I think, with Ms Wong that one. Aiyah idk. Yeah then Math test.. ): -.-

Ahhh sorry I hate slangs but they make speech so much easier. Self-contradicting. Rahh nevermind byebye in a hurry now :(

P/S Updated my playlist, the songs are damn awesome!

Papf.

2010-02-06T17:57:00.005+08:00

Headache. I think I'm going to come down with a bout of flu sooner or later.

Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
Naega naega naega munjuh
Nehgae nehgae nehgae bbajuh bbajuh bbajuh party baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Noonee booshuh booshuh booshuh
Soomee makhyuh makhyuh makhyuh
Naega micheo micheo baby

Baraboneun noonbit sokeh noonbit sokkeh naneun machiNaneun micheo mwuheh holin nomeejen busuhnajido mothae ~

Ahhhhhh Sorrysorry is getting me very high. :D

YUNHOYUNHOYUNHO ♥♥♥

2010-02-06T00:00:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
YUNHO OPPA! ♥

YUNHOYUNHOYUNHO. :D Happy birthday, saranghae (L)
SARANGHAEYO YUNHO OPPA! ♥♥♥
I'm feeling veryveryvery high now. How can one not, when it's one's favourite idol's birthday!? :D :D :D
OMG. YUNHO OPPA, DON'T BE SAD OKAY! Remember that us fans will always be behind you. You're the leader of DBSK, make DBSK together again! :D :D :D I'm sure the best present for you this year would be celebrating your birthday with the boys ♥

JUNG YUN HO, 6 FEBRUARY 1986. You made a difference, oppa. You changed so many people's lives. Don't give up. (:

You're everything to me.

Hydrochloric acid.

2010-02-05T17:48:00.006+08:00

HCL test was actually very easy but I didn't study -.- So I didn't now how to spell and everything ):
EL was as awesome as usual. Haha Ms Koh's lessons are verrrrrrry interesting but she keeps saying they're boring .______.
History was zomg. I studied TOV and LON came out... Following that was Math which was umm relatively okay I guess. Robin's very funny LOL. Mr Lee hahaha ._. Remedial for me's on wed. o.o I get to go twice! :D
After Lunch was Lit which was okay considering it's set text.

Okay bye and sorry for inserting all the slang and short forms and singlish here. :X

TGIF. And I love 310.

有梦想谁都了不起有勇气就会有奇迹

2010-02-04T16:44:00.005+08:00

Today was more of a bad day than a good one.

Anyway assembly was awesome but we stayed outside the hall and then it was postponed. -.- So hot and we missed a lot, esp. the chinese cultural camp part. Someone said got one unglam photo of me lol. Haha but the song omg the lyrics. <3 NH. And I promised myself to make the most out of these two years in NH. :D

Loneliness is not when one is alone ; it's when you surrounded by many yet you feel lonely.

Oh yeah and I ONLY GOT FOUR POINTS FOR THE CCA/CIP THING. Wtheck la, I really have to participate more in stuff but idk got what activities to join also D: Omg I wish I'm a councilor la, all the councilors have > 15 and some > 20 omgomgomg even though I don't want to be one coz ____. But zomg how. I NEED POINTS :( POINTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I bet I'm like last in level.

ENTHRALLED

2010-02-03T15:23:00.003+08:00

If you have read the post below, you would have known what I dreamt of last night. I AM POSITIVELY ENTHRALLED BY THE WONDER OF MY DREAM. :D It really got me back into the kpop craze.

Well anyway I shall post about school today.

Chinese was okay, I spent 15min finishing my math corrections before starting on the informal letter. Math was stress, but relatively okay. Rushed down for recess, then bought the lit files. Yeappp purpleeeee. Don't really like the colour though. I'd much much much prefer white because it represents simplicity yet complexity which just about sums up literature. (: But purple represents deep thoughts I think so quite matches lit too :D

English was awesome. I always look forward to English lessons now. And I really really really respect Ms Koh a lot! Got back SRPs, she didn't give me zero after all :D I got a 14 and a 15 ._. Language and personal response were equally balanced I guess.

History was, well, I don't know. It's an interesting sort of boring, I would say. Hmm. Social studies. Zhixiang didn't succeed in trying to get Ms Kee to postponed the test ): Oh well at least that's one less thing to worry about. Though I wouldn't be surprised if I fail and score 1 mark. ._.

Yup okay that's all! :D

I feel very extra okay? I don't belong. I'm like an outsider who just barged in. I feel left out.. I thought that things would take a turn for the better but somehow that isn't the case... sometimes I really want to join the other girls but I like you all too... What should I do? I feel as though I don't have any real friends... I'm insignificant.

A tirade of emotions.

2010-02-03T14:59:00.004+08:00

I hung around tentatively in the room, waiting for Glenda to finish getting her autograph from Minhwan. All of a sudden I felt indignant. Why were there only about 7 fans who could get their autographs and talk to them? It was so unfair. I felt hurt and empty. Tears began to stream down my face.

"Are you okay?" I looked up, and with a shock I realised it was Hongki. A wave of emotions overcame me and I couldn't speak. When I did my words jumbled up and my emotions rendered me incoherent. I started to rant at him, complaining about the unfairness of the situation. Soon I was speaking in between tears and my heart suddenly felt as though it had been pierced with a glass shard. Hongki tried to explain the circumstances to me, but nothing went in. All I knew then was that I loved this guy in front of me, but the feelings were not mutual. My tear glands began generating floods of tears. I was practically in hysterics. My thoughts were hindered by my heart.

Hongki surveyed me for a moment. I wonder what went through his head in that five seconds? He was probably thinking that I was a pathetic childish fan who should be chased away. My heart gave a sob as I tried to breathe in properly. I'd forgotten how to breathe. I've never felt this way before. Everything that you do makes my heart skip a beat.

Suddenly he smiled, and gentleness caressing his deep and melodious voice he spoke, "Ahhhh ~ Mianhae ~ shall we make an appointment the day after tomorrow then? We can get some time together."

I couldn't remember his exact words, but I knew was that we were going to meet and talk again! My tears eased gradually and I nodded, too overwhelmed to speak. He smiled again - oh that smile! - and gave a little wave that made me weak at the knees. As he walked away, I hesitated.

"Hongki oppa, saranghaeyo!"

He stopped, turned back, raised an eyebrow and smiled - oh, oh that smile! - before answering.

"Saranghaeyo!"

With that and a little wave, he walked away. As he walked away, I counted the steps that he took. Did he see how much I needed him?

My feelings at that point were indescribable.

And then I woke up and realised that it was all a dream.

I was only slightly disappointed, but very elated about having this dream. Hongki oppa, saranghaeyo. It doesn't matter if you don't reply this time. It doesn't matter that you don't hold me in your heart. It doesn't matter if you don't know me. All I know is that you'll be in my heart... forever.

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The above is a true story. The words in italics, though, aren't. But it's a dream I'm gonna treasure forever... and ever...

Fabulous, fantastic, fantabulous.

2010-02-01T17:02:00.007+08:00

As we've observed, English is a slippery language, strewn with homonymic banana peels, slapstick mondegreens, and tongue twisters. Even fluent speakers of English constantly make mistakes.
- Steve Rivkin and Fraser Sutherland, The Making of a Name: The Inside Story of the Brands We Buy

Today was fantabulous! <- I know there's no such word but yeah. :D
Had spelling during English, was very fail coz I didn't study. :/ I got the last two words wrong lol. ~~Tittered~~ Teetered and ~~Travels~~ Traverse. Haha :D Then was PE, wlao best PE lesson ever seriously <3 Ran around the perimeter of the field for 5 times, then cool down :D Damn shuang man. Hope we every PE lesson late then do PT. :D But it's kinda unreasonable coz it's not like it's our fault for being late ._.
ANYWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY SOCIALSTUDIES TEST WAS POSTPONED. :D Totally high la (coz I didn't study :X) Thank you glenda i love youuu >D
Hahaha, okayokay maternity leave. Zhixiang damn funny la, keep asking why must have maternity leave. LOL. "Then, why ah, must have 4 months? 1 month enough already what!"
Malay was boring. :D Physics was damn interesting but the pendulum hypnotised me *falls into deep sleep* Chionged back to class after lunch. Almost late. Yeah wasn't in the mood for math after being hypotised and the curtain -.- Lol but quite okay lah, understandable. :D
Yeah so today was fantabulous! :D Hahaha. Ms Kee + Zhixiang, Mr Liu + Robin, Ms Khoo + Yimou all very funny -.- :D

Sad glenda sick :( Zomg get well soon okay D: D: D:

On a side note, I'm pissed with xyz. Attention seeker la. -.- So fake for what omg. Disgusting.

Dream guy.

2010-02-01T00:02:00.003+08:00

1. brown hair | black hair | blonde hair | red hair
2. taller | shorter | same height as you
3. ears| no piercings | snake bites | other | doesnt matter
4. tattoos | no tattoos | doesn’t matter
5. skater | punk | player | indie | cowboy | musician | preppy | jock | other
6. shy | outgoing | in between
7. mellow | hyper | loud | quiet
8. blue eyes | brown eyes | green eyes
9. wears tight jeans | wears normal jeans | other
10. converse | vans | nikes | skate shoes | other
11. listens to: metal | rap | indie | classic rock | country | all | other
12. compliments too much | compliments when necessary
13. jokes around all the time | jokes when necessary
14. sensitive | hides emotion | acts tough | other
15. hobbies: computer | music | skating | sports | drawing | fishing | other
16. loves to hold | loves to be held
17. tons of muscles | fit | skinny | chubby
18. pale | average | tan | dark
19. cusses a lot | never cusses | only cusses around friends | other
20. wavy hair | curly hair | straight hair | short hair | longish hair

Lol got from Jesslyn's blog. Ah omg SS test. My right arm hurts ._.

Kaboom.

2010-01-30T17:26:00.008+08:00

She deserves to have her guts ripped out for torturing not only a kitten, but so many innocent animals including young chicks!

She's demented and she ought to be punished for her misdeeds. I've read several comments, all of which deem her as a crazy woman and all of whom want to do the innocent kitten justice. My first thought after watching the video was "THAT IS SO INHUMANE!" and I so much wanted to get at the unrepentant animal abuser, but then again, she may have done wrong, but two wrongs don't make a right, do they?

Retribution will get her. She may get away with these wrongdoings in life, but when she dies she will receive her just punishment. Life is fair. So what if her marriage failed, so what if she was depressed? Does it make any difference to what she did? Does she not have a conscience at all? Did none of the kitten's pain, distress and cries for help wrench her heart?

If it were even a rash moment of anger, this should not have happened. But it wasn't done rashly. It was planned out. No one should use violence as a solution to their problems. What's more, she insists that she has done no wrong. Why do such people in the world even exist? Are not the natural causes of pain, destruction, hurt and death enough?

"Oh, I'm sad, I shall go murder someone and cause them pain now." Does that make sense? Does causing pain to innocent animals satisfy her? 請不要把自己的快樂建築在別人的痛苦上.

I cannot comprehend.

Damndamndamn life.

2010-01-29T17:16:00.010+08:00

TGIF!!!!!!!
School has been terrible. Headache headache headache. I really feel like giving up.
Anyway I shall post an account of what happened today (haven't been doing that since oct last year?).

HCL was the same usual stuff. The class were in a stupor, it was so boring. But English livened us up. I handed in the srp late, and Ms Koh was like angry D: I wish she's not so strict lor. RAHHHHHHHHH. I wanna put 100% effort into what I do but time is failing me ): SRPSRP, Ms Koh said I'll get zero... :( I hope it isn't graded, but even so I want to know where I stand! D:
Urgh.
Had test, I did okay I guess. Wanted to write about a fantasy and OH I WOKE UP AND IT WAS ALL A DREAM but decided not to because those endings are SO FAIL. Yeah dreams are like, English teachers will not give good marks one. I wrote about some fantasy and ended off with I WASN'T SURE IF IT WAS A DREAM. Doesn't even make sense. Feel like kicking myself now la. Should've written a fantasy and left it at that. GAHHHHHHHHHHH.

E. hist was okay. Math was tough as usual. E. lit was boring. Okay I'm not in the mood to post I'm like emo :I

Damndamndamn life.

Oh yeah got back SS essay. Very disappointed with my results la, SERIOUSLY?!?!? And I spent a lot of effort doing it coz I really really take pride in my essays. But wtheck.

I want to kill myself la.

The Poison Tree

I was angry with my friend
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe
I told it not, my wrath did grow.

And I water'd it in fears,
Night and morning with my tears;
And I sunned it with smiles,
And with soft deceitful wiles.

And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright.
And my foe beheld it shine.
And he knew that it was mine.

And into my garden stole
When the night had veil'd the pole;
In the morning glad I see
My foe outstretched beneath the tree.

- William Blake

This poem portrays the depth of hatred and enmity. :D I think it's really really wonderful. :D Poems are the best!! >D Zomg la why is Common Test based on Off Centre.

OH and the file is purple -.- I want white lor, it totally describes literature in my opinion, purity. sad D: And damnit I don't have time to organise my thoughts in the post properly.

Huffing and puffing.

2010-01-28T23:14:00.005+08:00

I'm taking a short break from chionging homework, so I shall do a short post of lessons accordingly to my love for them :D

Math - Best even though it's my weakest subject.
SS - Watching Ms Kee and Zhixiang damn funny.
EL - Ms Koh is damn nice and whatever she says are very meaningful!
History - Miss Khoo is relatively funny and she's like cute xD
E. lit (Ms Koh) - I'd picked it before Hist if it were for 310 instead of mixed classes :/
Phy - Love-hate relationship?
E. lit (Ms Rani) - Err.
HCL - Errrrrrrr.
Chem - Chem doesn't make any sense to me D:

I feel like an imbecile sitting in front of a genius la okay. D:
Hais, I'm scared I can't catch up for Math and Chem (maybe Phy too). And I think I deproved a lot in Chinese. :( Plus this cca thing is worrying me like crazy, I'm gonna fall off the edge and get kicked out of crosscountry coz I'm apparently not good enough and got new people want to join and they're so much better and it's obvious I can't combine speed with stamina and if I don't join crosscountry I can't join ODAC :( I NEED TO LIKE, BREATHE. 5 tests next week, math test 08/02, english test this fri, elit test 11/02. Like wth.

Pass me the oxygen tank, please.

Denied.

2010-01-25T18:35:00.010+08:00

She feels a lacuna in her life,
something so near yet unreachable
Unattainable
And at times she prevaricates
in order to create her own reality
her love for you is veritable,
anything but a quotidian feeling
But did you understand?
You think her a weak willed, timid person,
you treat her with cool indifference
Her very existence may as well as naught.
She persists, firm and insistent,
hoping you would one day notice her
Every day she sends you a message,
hoping against hope you would reply
But no, again and again disappointment filled her.
Finally she could bear it no longer,
a single tear, the last trace of hope,
trickled down her sunken cheek
Despair encircled her heart,
devouring it piece by piece.
And when she was found,
her heart was virtually ripped from her soul
a bloodless hand almost caressing
a bloodstained knife
The same one which took her life.
It was only then had she given up.
Both her love - and her life.

This is my first complete "poem". The meaning is quite clear, because I'm not W.H. Auden or William Shakespeare, I cannot conceal the hidden meaning within. This poem is written about a young girl who falls hard for her benefactor, a somewhat arrogant and self-centered youth, who cares about nothing except women, drinking, pills and smoking. But the young girl saw none of his faults. As said, beauty lies in the hands of its beholder.

She wanted to get to know him better, but he never bothered himself about her. To him she was nothing, to her he was everything. And a life without him was no longer worth living.

I took 2 hours "crafting" out this really nonsensical chunk of words, I know it may seem extremely amateur to you but I really hope you (yes, you stranger who happens to come here) don't take it for your own credit. After all, I spent so much time on it. Inspirations? My crush.

OH AND BY THE WAY. I know poems are supposed to rhyme, but sorry I'm just not good enough ):

Okay enough of poems. Haha heard from Cecilia today that we still can appeal to NJ, because apparently there are vacancies left. I don't know if I should appeal, because I won't want to leave 310, lol not like I have a chance to get in anyway. Hahaha, sometimes I regret not going for IP two years ago, because Os are so stressful. Two years back I thought I should take Os because it's more complete and it will stabilize my studies, plus I've always wanted to go JC/Poly. :/ Maybe it isn't such a bad thing after all, hais. If only I studied hard during sec 1 and 2. I totally regret, I can't catch up in class during Math/Chem/Phy etc now. ): Oh well, I shall reverse everything, turn-about ~~~ Wheeeeee. Oh, yes, and Innocence by Lavigne is awesome (L)

Equality.

2010-01-24T14:43:00.001+08:00

"If all the misfortunes in the world were laid in one common heap whence everyone must come, and take an equal portion, most people would be contented to take their own and depart." - Socrates

Shucks I think I got food poisoning.

2010-01-23T16:31:00.006+08:00

Happy Birthday Jesslyn! (:

All the best for your future :D Hahaha, come back to NH often okay! (:

2010-01-22T22:35:00.003+08:00

This is the first time I ever shed tears for a boy. I'm not good enough for you, but won't you give me a chance? I wish I know how you feel. My heart's sobbing. The reason for my existence is you. Do I not stand a chance? Am I not your princess? Can I never be the one in your heart? Your name repeats itself over and over again in my mind, but I never can get tired of it. Is this love? I know not. This is altogether a new feeling for me. I've never experienced this before. But it's okay. If you and I, we can't be together. I just want you to be happy. Tell me when you're feeling down, won't you? I'll always be there for you. Always.

Love or crush?

2010-01-22T22:11:00.003+08:00

"He is always on my mind. Dreams without his image are nightmares. However, dreams with him sadden me, as well, because I know I will wake up to find that it is unreal. I constantly remind myself: It's just a crush. Like the numerous times before. But, then again, I ask myself: Have my crushes ever been so potent? Can crushes make me feel so weird and wonderful, all at once? Can crushes wrench my heart like this? I know it is more than just a crush. I need him."

- Credits to Low Kay Hwa, edited parts of it.

Rhythmic.

2010-01-22T17:10:00.007+08:00

I'm skipping tuition because my head is hurting badly. Stress? I don't know. Anyway, I'm reverting back to typing in complete sentences. But I can't find the time to actually post. Anyway, some poems :)
Not by me, of course!

Don't Quit by Unknown
When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow--
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup,
And he learned too late when the night slipped down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out--
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

Desiderata by Max Ehrmann
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

I guess the themes of both poems relate to each other. It's all about being happy and not giving up! Determination.

Okay, I'm going to talk about lessons. They're relatively okay because of the jokes here and there. Our class is the most enthusiastic class! We mayn't be like 303 or 308, although I think our standard is quite high, but we work hard and play hard unlike some classes who don't have much 'sense of fun'. All work but no play makes Jack a dull boy. And 310 is very bonded too. 310 and 311 originated from 210 and 211, but 310 is obviously so much more bonded. (L)
Hahaha, Jaslyn should transfer lor! D:
Lessons may be fun, but I feel really pressurized. Not by the amount of homework or the difficulty, because most subjects are relatively easy for me - with the exception of Math, Chem and sometimes Physics (the math/ graph/ solving things parts). Especially Math. Everytime I have homework, I'll do Math first because I know I'm slow. And I neglect other subjects. I can't do other subjects first because though they're not that difficult, it takes time and there won't be enough time to complete Math and hence I will lag behind the class (as if I'm not lagging a lot already!).
I also need to concentrate on English and Literature because even though they're my best subjects they're considered the "a lot of B3 and B4s" subjects. I also have to spend more time on Chinese because my standard has deteriorated a lot since P6, and we're taking Chinese Os this year. I also have to concentrate on my running because of the team, I also have to concentrate on my Chem because I don't know a single thing about balancing chemical equations and forming equations (my fault for not paying attention). I also have to concentrate on History, because, yes, I used to be one of the best but because of laziness I dropped so I have to buck up again.
I really regret for wasting two years of my life, but what's the point of regretting? Actions speak louder than words.

Run, run, run.

2010-01-20T20:38:00.002+08:00

Mr Chan's encouragement really helped a lot. Ying Zhi as well. Sorry for implicating the team, I'll do my best! I won't let all of you down. (:
Anyway Mr Liu came today. He's really nice, and I think his smile looks like Taekyung's smile :X Glenda doesn't think so hahaha! Anyway I haven't handed in Math 2, but Mr Liu was really really nice and didn't even scold me. I hope I don't let him down by continually failing Math ): Math is like Greek to me D:
Bye gotta go try to understand Greek ._.

Beautiful life.

2010-01-18T20:41:00.002+08:00

Hmm, lessons are kinda fun! :D Haha, the teachers are awesome, even Mdm Wang. Although I didn't quite like her at first, she turned out to be a good sport. I miss Mr Chan, I think Ms Saw is weird. Mr Tan is okay but I still miss Mrs Chang a lot... I miss Mdm Yip too but Mrs Khoo is awesome too. :D And Ms Poon... :( But I miss Huanglaoshi the most lor... I think my Chinese standard deteriorated so much that there's a vast difference between my p6 and current standard. I really don't want to let him down uh. I loved Chinese... why have things changed so much? Growing up hurts... but parts of it are good too... is this what bittersweet means?
I totally don't miss 211. Not a single bit.. I can't remember anything about it... it seems so vague now, I can't recall any happy moments. Sad moments maybe, but I tend to erase them away. Maybe there's too much sadness and I can't recall anything. That's good, I'll just assume that I've spent the last two years of my life shrouded in absolute darkness, hibernating. (:
I love myself for having survived those difficult times, for finding the confidence in myself, for being less self-conscious, for being nonchalant about others' judgments, for just being myself. The outer shell splintered, the innermost soul materializes, with stronger a will to fight, with the determination more formidable than everything under the sky. Centuries defeated, the new Me has come out to war.
Okay ignore my feeble attempt at poetry ):

The Second Coming by William Butler Yeats

2010-01-17T17:05:00.004+08:00

Turning and turning in the widening gyre
The falcon cannot hear the falconer;
Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold;
Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world,
The blood-dimmed tide is loosed, and everywhere
The ceremony of innocence is drowned;
The best lack all conviction, while the worst
Are full of passionate intensity.

Surely some revelation is at hand;
Surely the Second Coming is at hand.
The Second Coming! Hardly are those words out
When a vast image out of Spiritus Mundi
Troubles my sight; somewhere in sands of the desert
A shape with lion body and the head of a man,
A gaze blank and pitiless as the sun,
Is moving its slow thighs, while all about it
Reel shadows of indignant desert birds.
The darkness drops again; but now I know
That twenty centuries of stony sleep
Were vexed to nightmare by a rocking cradle,
And what rough beast, its hour come round at last,
Slouches towards Bethlehem to be born?

Yici 堂弟, happy 8th birthday! (:

bo peep bo peep bo peep ah

2010-01-15T22:41:00.003+08:00

Lol second post today.
Idk why, I suddenly felt nostalgic during the bus ride home after tuition. I thought a lot. Then I realised I was running around in circles. My thoughts kept colliding with one another. Idk la. I miss 211 sometimes, though memories are vague and have disappeared almost completely. I miss 黄老师, Miss Poon, Mrs Tan HT, Mrs J. Tan, Mrs Chang and Mr Chan a lot. I really wish they still taught me (not Mrs J. Tan though since I don't take Bio anymore..). I miss them and I don't know how to describe how I feel either. Chinese lessons are no longer interesting now... PE too...
Even though I'm happier. But I can't help worrying about some things. I kept thinking "what if I die one day and can no longer complete my goals and what i want to do and can never be happy with my loved ones anymore?" on the bus. Then I thought of cancer patients who know that their days are numbered and they don't have a choice and they KNOW that they're gonna die, some with regrets. How would they feel? Knowing that their fate is inevitable? I feel sorry for them.. I think I'll sign up for cip and help a few people. (:
Reality is so, so fragile..

Get the tempo ready go :D

2010-01-15T15:17:00.008+08:00

Today was fun (:
Picking up litter and everything was fun but being in class after that was even more fun. Cuz of hyenas :D Ahhh damn funny la. This class is crazy. And omg Glenda spastic face with pen between her nose and mouth, and her squashed nose LMAO. And the frequent throwing of sweets and the laughter and the smiles and the bball and "mr CHEEEEEE!" Ahlala :D You know what, I think the class tee should have hyenas as a design, throwing sweets into their mouths. That would totally describe us LOL.
Johnny Johnny Johnny Johnny Whoosh Johnny Whoosh Johnny Johnny Johnny Johnny. :D
George George George George Bush George Bush George George George George :O Cheryl's invention!
Our class is definitely the most hyper class in the lvl! Haha :D I want class tee to be orange ): But orange so unpopular so I changed to red my second choice :D Purple weird leh xD EHEH BUT IF PURPLE MUST HAVE A LINE AT THE FRONT ;D I think I want put my name as "TVXQsun" ._. or "risingsun"? Maybe "SUNshinee" Lol SHINee!
P/S: I thought of a 310 name :D SUP3RJUN10R!! >D

Listen to my heartbeat.

2010-01-14T13:42:00.006+08:00

Life is super hectic I can't even spare time for my beauty sleep. ):
Anyway, I managed to find time to post today because we were dismissed earlier. I shall express my awesome view on 310/ lessons etc. :D
Basically everything is "I love" or "I like". Although there are those times when I feel left out and unpopular and alone, but most of the times were really great. I think life is fun filled though hectic.
Oh yeah oh yeah I'm damn short uh. Haven't hit 160!! D< Amanda super tall wtheck ):
I think Cheryl's the tallest for girls followed by Amanda :O Who's the third :D:D:D I hope it's me xD
Lessons are generally fun because of some people lol (and sweets ;D). Not the sweets but the throwing. Ah, bball training in class. Bball with classmates is fun (L)
Anyway I just realized that Ms Kee is left-handed lol! Btw Because Of You by After School not bad ;D Hahaha. Gonna ask Mrmun about joining ODAC again, since Ms Yeo already agreed. I think Ms Yeo's quite nice leh! :/ Haha she was like, "You just join lor, I'll do the rest." in this gentle motherly tone O.O
Lol, I just realized Mr CHEE looks a hell lot like Obama.

Fading city lights.

2010-01-12T22:18:00.004+08:00

ChoiKang Changmin looked up at the President with hard eyes. He couldn’t let himself go in front of him, not after what he had told him.

“You’re going to have to leave quietly. Your plane to London is tomorrow at 5:00 PM. We have everything set there. You will not need to pack anything. Clothes will be provided for you. You shall be staying with the director of Vogue for the time being. You will get your own place in a month, and you shall live there without any connection to them. We have a trainee set to debut with them, replacing you. Understood?”

Changmin nodded his head in silence. The tears threatened to fall. He was going to lose them...

At the Apartment

Changmin stepped inside the apartment slowly, knowing it would probably be the last time.

“Changminnie! What took you so long? What did President want to talk to you about?” Junsu yelled from the couch. TV blared from the living room.

Changmin fought to keep his voice steady.

“He just wanted to discuss my upcoming plans to model with Pinky Magazine, that’s all.” Changmin had to keep a firm grip on my emotions. The time he had with them was limited and he did not want to fill it with sad moments.

“Changminnie, you’re home! I made your favorite jiggae! Come and get it!” Changmin heard Jaejoong’s voice from the kitchen.

“Hey! No fair! Is it pleasing Changmin day or something?” Changmin chuckled at Yoochun’s complaints. He was going to miss them.

“Yoochun! Stop complaining! It’s Changmin’s special day tomorrow!” My beloved hyung, my substitute appa, Yunho. What a special day, my birthday. What a birthday present huh?

“So? It’s tomorrow! Why does he get the special treatment today??” Yoochun going at it again.

Changmin walked into the kitchen slowly, whacking Yoochun on the shoulder.

“Because I am Changmin-sama.” Changmin heard all their familiar laughs. Changmin felt his willpower wearing down as he looked at each and every one of them. He wanted to hug them and never let go.

The night was spent enjoying a regular day in the Dong Bang Shin Ki household. The residents, however, did not have the slightest idea that one of their beloved was about to step out of their lives forever.

Next Day... 3:30 PM

Changmin pulled his usual beanie over his dark hair, a present from Yoochun. His hands went to pick up the necklace on the coffee table. It was a special, one of 5 necklaces that Junsu had bought for them when they had stayed in Thailand. He had gotten the letter X, in the TVFXQ word. He knew the X didn’t belong there. Take the X out, and it returned to it’s original form, TVXQ. He placed the $200’s worth of CD’s Jaejoong hyung had gotten for his 19th birthday in his carry-on bag. His brand new iPod, courtesy of Yunho hyung, rested in his pocket. He then pulled his hood over his head, and stepped out of the apartment. He looked back. This was the place that he had created so many memories in. Sure, he had lost his childhood years, but he gained so much more; friendship, family, love.

Changmin let the tears stream down my face as he walked away from the place he had really called...

home.

Back at the apartment...

“Shhh... Guys keep your voice down or he’ll hear us.” Yunho shushed the three immature boys.

Jaejoong held the hand baked cake in his hand as Junsu slowly opened the door.

“He’s probably in the bathroom you guys. The coast is clear. Come in.” Yoochun ushered them in.

The 4 sneakily went around the apartment, searching for their mangnae.

“Changmin-ah!”

“Shim Changmin! Come out, now!”

“Yah! Dongsaeng, we got something for you!”

“It’s your favorite strawberry cheesecake. I made it myself! Come out now, or Junsu’s going to eat it all.”

“HEYY!”

“Changmin, where are you?”

They all returned to the living room, looking confused.

“Where did he go? He said he was too sick to get out of bed.” Junsu asked slowly.

“He isn’t picking up his phone.” Yoochun came into the room clutching his phone.

“I’m sure he just went out to get some fresh air. He’ll be back. Let’s wait for 30 minutes. If he doesn’t come back by then, we’ll call manager hyung.” Yunho’s reply filled the silence.

Jaejoong turned on the TV to break the awful silence as they waited worriedly for their brother to come home.

30 Minutes Later

“It’s going to his voicemail hyung. Changmin has his phone turned off.” Junsu shut his phone with a sigh.

“Manager hyung’s not picking up either.” Yoochun cried dejectedly.

“Aish... where did this boy go?” Yunho’s exasperated voice called from his room.

Jaejoong lay on the couch, mumbling to himself. I never should have left him alone. I should have stayed with him... aigoo... Changmin-ah where are you?

The 3 heard a crash in the bedroom.

They exchanged worried looks as they hurried to see what was wrong. Yunho’s pale face was filled with shock as his eyes scanned a piece of paper in his hands.

They saw Changmin’s special glass treasure box on the ground, the contents scattered all around.

“Yunho...?” Jaejoong whispered softly.

He looked up, his eyes devoid of their usual warmth.

“Hyung... what’s wrong?” Junsu’s voice questioned confusedly.

“He’s... gone...” Yunho’s voice shook as he handed the piece of paper to the 3.

To my beloved hyungs,

I guess I’m no longer talented enough to be in Dong Bang Shin Ki... kekeke. I’m just joking. There was apparently a secret trainee by the name of Kang Changmin who was supposed to take my spot in the band from the very start. He wasn’t ready then, so they used me. I guess now that he’s ready; they don’t need my services anymore. AHAHAHA! It’s funny, huh? He also has the same name as me! It’ll be like I’m right there! :D President is sending me off to London to be the main model for Vogue magazine, so I still get something fun to do. =))) Great birthday present huh guys? Hehehe... He talked to my parents about it, and he’s got it all set with the company. Anyways, I’ve met the new guy. He’s AMAZING! You guys will like him a lot! Honest. Cassiopeia will welcome him with open arms. He’s really good looking too. It’s all for the best right??? Please don’t be upset I didn’t tell you guys. Please... with a cherry on top? Let me see that wonderful smile Junsu. Oh, come on, Yoochun, don’t start crying now. Yunho hyung, tell him to stop crying! You’ve got to be happy! Life’s too short for you to be sad! Jaejoong hyung, I’m taking the left over jiggae you made last night. Don’t be mad! **Ducks as the spatula comes flying** It was so good, I couldn’t resist. Hmm... did you know by chance that I would be leaving...? Is that why you made it so delicious? Kekeke...

Ok, ok, I’ll be serious now...

I wanted to tell you guys that I love you so, so much. You have given me the greatest gift of all, something that I couldn’t put in my treasure box because it too big. You gave me a spot in your hearts. Thank you so much for that. I can’t take my treasure box because it is too heavy. You’ve given me so many good memories that my treasure box now weighs 100... no, 1,000 tons! I’m sorry; it’s just too heavy to put in my suitcase!

I’m leaving it with you so you’ll have something to remember me by since I won’t be coming back. Actually, I wasn’t even supposed to tell you all this... but I felt I owed it to you guys. I’ll always treasure everything you did for me. I love you so much.

BYE-BYE!

Love,

Changmin-sama... Junsu hyung’s master!! **Ducks again from the flying video controller** >.<

Yoochun’s tears splattered onto the piece of paper. Jaejoong let the letter float to the ground as he sunk down to the floor in shock. Junsu left the room, clutching his phone with trembling hands. Yunho looked as if he was about to murder the first person he came across.

They heard a shout from the front room.

“WHAT???? 5:00???” Junsu’s shout echoed throughout the apartment.

He ran back into the room looking paler than ever.

“His plane takes off at 5:00. We can still stop him from leaving us. I don’t know about you guys, but I love him too much to let him go. He’s our younger brother, closer to us than blood. HE CAN’T BE REPLACED!” Junsu’s shaking voice declared to the room.

The 3 stood up without hesitation.

Airport

“Flight 304 to London, boarding Section A now...”

Changmin sighed and stood up, hitching my backpack onto my shoulder. That was his section. These would be his last moments on Korean soil.

“Purple Line, Let me setup my world...”

Changmin’s head shot up immediately. The TV was playing our performance of Purple Line on SBS Inkigayo. There were numerous people watching it. He walked up to it and stood behind one of the girls, watching it with sad eyes.

“Flight 304 to London, final boarding call for Section A...”

Another sigh escaped his lips. The girl in front of him turned around and her eyes widened in recognition. Changmin placed his finger on his lips, hoping she wouldn’t...

“DONG BANG SHIN KI, CHOIKANG CHANGMIN!”

Yup... she did. All heads turned to look at him.

Changmin chuckled slightly.

“Ani... You’re mistaking me for someone else young lady.” Changmin smiled at her, trying to avoid a commotion. People started to gather around him. He closed his eyes.

“Look, people, I’m not Changmin or whatever. My name is...” Changmin searched his mind for a fake name.

“Changmin. His name is Shim Changmin.”

My eyes shot open. The 4 TVXQ members stood behind the crowd. Everyone turned to look at them.

Changmin started backing away. No. President would destroy them. He couldn’t let it happen. He turned to leave.

“Nega kumkwowadon neiri onuse yogi gude jabun sonuro nukkyojyo

ochomyon nomu molji molla marhaji mothejyo sumgyowadon gu maumdo morun chero..” Jaejoong started.

Changmin stopped in his tracks. Camera’s started to flash. People started to whisper.

“Guden otton maumingayo gu nun soge bichwo on onjengae miremajodo

moduga da ne goshingayo nan saraina bwayo kamsaheyo modun gol gajyossuni...” Junsu’s trembling voice took over.

He slowly turned around.

Yoochun stepped forward, his eyes puffy from crying.

“We can’t sing the next line without you Changmin-ah.”

Yunho extended his hand forward to him.

“Dong Bang Shin Ki is nothing without one of its members. No one can replace one of us.” Jaejoong’s soft voice called out to him.

“We are closer than blood. No one can tear us apart.” Junsu eyes met mine, and Changmin knew he couldn’t leave.

“Someday I’ll...” Changmin began.

“...lay my love on you. Baby I don’t want to lose you now... Just one...” Their voices blended together perfectly.

Changmin stepped forward. They grabbed him, and pulled him into a hug. And Changmin knew from that moment on that he couldn’t leave them, no matter what.

Took the fanfiction from this person's blog who probably took it from another website. Anyway, I shed tears of sorrow and bawled my eyes out after reading this... okay, scratch that. But don't you think it's so absolutely touching? I hope the whole SME issue will blow over soon.

I've hardly found the time to blog, Sec 3 life is so hectic. I love 310, it's superduper *inserts all positive words/phrases*. (:

Monsoon season.

2010-01-07T18:53:00.007+08:00

The typhoon today drenched me completely (my umbrella flew away at one point and I ran in the rain to seize it) and left me with chattering teeth and in shivers. I'd prefer running 5km or something to struggling with the continual pattering rain and freezing winds. It was a tough wrestle with my umbrella which kept overturning. My feet went numb because my socks and shoes were wet from top to bottom. What's more, I had to endure the wrath of the chilling air in the classroom. Maybe the school should ban aircon on rainy days or something. D:
Brrr. Today was very cold. ):
I'm not going to post much today because we have a terrifying Math level test tomorrow. My undone Math homework is beckoning me and my Literature isn't done yet either. Seems like I have to sleep a little later tonight.

Lullaby.

2010-01-05T17:17:00.009+08:00

Heavy books and five storeys high don't bode well together. :/

The beginning of lessons! Let me post an account of today’s happenings according to the subjects we’ve had for today. Prior to that, let me first express my opinion on the new principal... (content removed) I miss Mr Foo and his happy-go-lucky ways. ): Nan Hua will be different from now on...

HCL: Our teacher was Mrs/ Ms Liu, and she seems to be pretty nice, though she also appears to be quite gentle and she does speak slightly too softly. Lol and she asked who our previous Chinese teacher was. When she found out ours was 黄老师, she said, "Orh! 他每次都叫你们死小孩对吗？" Everyone burst out laughing. Typical! Anyway we had to do self introductions, and a few were pretty amusing. When it was my turn I told her “我爱数学，超讨厌华文” (it is completely the reverse, I love Chinese and I ~~hate Math~~ not anymore). She looked somewhat astonished to hear that for some reason, haha! I wonder if she knows anything about me. :@

English Literature: This is practically my favourite subject, okay cancel out the practically. The syllabus is absolutely fascinating! I sympathise with those taking pure humanities, how boring it would be! I’m Literature representative for 310 (I almost typed 311), because I volunteered myself! Haha, quite thick-skinned, but I really love Literature and I was almost in raptures! Enough of my continual blubbing, but Literature is totally awesome ttm! We were also instructed to search for a poem that we love and express our views on it. Omg, W.H Auden here I come!

Elective History: I don’t quite like the teacher, enough said. Oh and I want to step down as History representative, have to ask Ms Kee first though. Seriously, Mrs Laura Khoo makes me dislike History! ): It used to be one of my favourite subjects, gah.

Recess was relatively okay, ate with Sara, Hua Xin and Ya Fei. First time trying the school’s Lor Mee lol.

Math: Math was simply awesome. Mr Chee is a excellent teacher! I completely understood the lesson for once and even took notes. What’s more, I found it interesting! I guess I’ll be a little sad when Mr Liu comes back. Oh, and there’s a level test this Friday. Hope I can do well, there are two interesting topics in there. Anyway, Mr Chee told us that the A Math syllabus consisted mostly of algebra and most people groaned. I think Algebra is one of the easiest things in Math, haha! I find Mr Chee’s pace suitable for me, but not quite for the good ones. ): I sure hope he won’t speed up his teaching too much.

Physics: Mr Eric Tan is quite comical :X Hahaha, he says that the syllabus will start from General Physics followed by Light something, we’ll only learn Thermal Physics and Electricity next year. He says that Electricity is difficult, but I find General Physics tougher. ):
Anyway, good to hear that Math doesn’t come in very often in Physics! P/S Mr Tan said SPA stands for School-based Practical Assessment.

Stayed in class for lunch and exchanged handphone numbers with Sara and Hua Xin.

Chemistry: I didn’t much like the look of the teacher, Mdm Cessaline Wang, when I first saw her. She gave the impression of a prim and extremely stern authoritarian. Well, but I gradually warmed a little to her because she wasn’t that bad after all. SPA, omg. The paper Mdm Wang showed us read: SPA = Science Practical Assessment. ._.

Okay, confusing. After school, Mr Liu gave us a talk. Not going to mention anything about it. I wasn’t able to go for training because it ended at 4.30pm and it was too late (not that I was planning to go). My plans for today were to revise Math thoroughly but I guess there’s not really much time.

All in all, I love school now. And I promise to learn and understand Math like the back of my hand. I think the class is extremely smart. Or am I just stupid. Anyway the class seems to know everything we're being taught or something. Anyway, I think that chasing idols is a complete waste of time now. Listening to their songs will be sufficient.

By the way, I accidentally called Mr Mun just now.

"Hello?"
"Hello?"
"Uh, yeah?"
"Huh?"
"Hah?"
"What?"
"Uh I called you one ah?"
"Uh yeah..."
"Oh, okay, um, I accidentally called you, sorry!"

I think I am very blur. Haha, anyway talked to him about the trial date, and apologized for skipping trainings every so often. He was really nice, he told me I'll just have to train doubly hard to make up. I shan't let him down. (:

Narrow shave.

2010-01-04T15:55:00.006+08:00

Today was the happiest day in my Nan Hua years, I am positively ecstatic! I absolutely love my class (with the exception of a particular someone)! MY CLASS IS FABULOUSLY AWESOMELY EXCELLENTLY BRILLIANT. People are awfully decent underneath once you get to know them better. Ms Kee is pretty nice too!

I totally love my classmates ttm (to the max)! I love Sara, Hua Xin, Ya Fei, Glenda, Annabel, Yu Jun, Jing Lin, and who else? Sorry if I missed you, but I love you all the same! Anyway I love my class like mad! And did I mention that I ABSOLUTELY LOVE MY CLASS? I LOVE MY CLASS!! Uh pardon me for my high spirits! ):

Anyway, our Math teacher is Mr Liu GK. I heard that he’s a brilliant teacher! But sadly he’ll be gone for two weeks, so another teacher will replace him temporarily. I’m History representative next year, Is Miss/Mrs Laura Khoo a good teacher? I’m so glad I’m not sports representative (I nearly became sports rep) when I found out our teacher was Ms Saw. Mr Chan lied! ): He told us last year that our PE teacher would either be JT or Mr Quek.

I shall now express my opinion on the seating arrangement. I'm quite close to Glenda. Define quite? Two seats behind her, but we probably won't get to talk to each other much. At least I changed with Sara, if not I'll dislike the arrangement.

Ms Joy Koh’s our English and E.Lit teacher. Who’s Mrs/Ms Liu Ling Feng? She’s to be our HCL teacher, Zheng Mian’s our Chinese teacher, sadly. Zheng Mian is nice, wish she was going to be teaching us HCL instead. Okay, anyway, I don’t really care who our teachers are. This year I’m going to work superbly hard. Not only that, I’m really going to work myself for cross-country, it’s like I’m letting down the team and disappointing the teachers. There was a trial today, and I gave up after a mere round around the school. I heard the Sec 2s commenting that 4.5km run was fairly easy, and I felt even more ashamed of myself. I’m quite certain this year’s Sec 1 batch can run even faster than me.

I'm so bitterly disappointed in myself (though I asked for it I suppose). The struggle between studies and co-curriculum activites is stressful, but I'm not the only one who feels that way.. Please don't think I'm a quitter, I don't want to give up either but cross-country really requires good health and physical ability! It's okay, I can do this. If people can, why can't I?

P/S: Hua Xin loves Hankyung!!

Forever is over.

2010-01-03T14:57:00.008+08:00

I know it has been two days after new year, but I haven't had time to post my resolutions yet so I shall do it now. To begin with, let me express my view on the subject of the starting of school. Why is it that I feel I'm about to enter someplace strange and new? Is it because we have been arranged into new classes, or that the school has undergone several changes (from the principal to the canteen tables) since I first entered the school? Or am I having qualms about what may happen?

Will the year ahead be a good one?

One of my seniors, Lynette, recently told me that Secondary Three life passes rapidly, and that everyone’s true colours will be shown, and friendships will grow. Lynette also mentioned that 410 last year was well known for its notoriety, and last year’s 310 (this year’s 410) had quite a bad reputation as well. She says she hopes that this year’s 310 will continue the 310/410 tradition. Haha, I certainly hope that 310 would be a fun (and mischievous) class! Oh, and she told me that Secondary Three Chemistry will be extremely tough. ):

I’ll miss Mr Foo, though. And the rectangular canteen tables. The new principal seems to be studies-oriented, that’s what I heard from others. I have a feeling that she’ll impose strict discipline on us, because her attempts to do so at her previous school were rather futile, and because she probably has this notion that Nan Hua students are generally well-behaved. How mistaken she would be!

On the whole, I’m relatively excited (and extremely nervous) about school. By the way, does anyone know what we’re supposed to bring to school tomorrow?

My resolutions (:
- To do well in Math
- Achieve an A1 in Chinese 'O' level exam
- Do homework
- Stop giving excuses to wriggle out of cross-country trainings
- Quit library and join ODAC (even if I have to beg Ms Yeo)
- 3rd in road run?
- Improve in catching, passing and throwing of balls
- Refrain from surfing the net too often
- Refrain from sleeping after 12 midnight
- Be happy

Goodbye 2009, hello 2010!

2009-12-31T22:17:00.003+08:00

I watched 'The Treasure Hunter' today but I'm neutral to it. The storyline is pretty messy, and the main stars aren't very good in acting. But I like the sandstorms, the magical happenings and Jay Chou's charisma! Some scenes are pretty interesting too. The show was rated under 'PG' (which means parental guidance is needed for those younger than 16) because of the violent content, but there isn't much violence anyway.

In less than two hours, another series of 365 days will be over. All too soon. Let 2010 be a happy and fruitful year for you! Brush off the unhappiness and receive the joy with open arms! (:

Btw, Glenda told me that Mr Lee told her that Ms Kee is our form teacher for next year. Heard that she's kind and nice. (:

Stranger at the road.

2009-12-30T18:35:00.003+08:00

All that you've said points back at you. Your feeble attempts at sarcasm are hilarious. The minute you resort to profanities, you lose all credibility. I will not deign to respond to such groundless, infinite accusations. What an irony I'm actually submitting this post. And how brainless.

Life, love, hate, desire.

2009-12-30T14:48:00.002+08:00

Sometimes we ought to forgive and forget. Sometimes think over and think in another's situation. Sometimes it is difficult to like someone but try to, because all humans have faults and we can't please everyone.
Sometimes life hurts, but don't give up. Sometimes you feel you are shortchanged, but getting angry or hurt is useless. Sometimes just look on the sunny side of everything, sometimes you'll find the light at the end of the tunnel.
Sometimes it's difficult to understand, sometimes quarrels may spring up. Sometimes friendships are broken. Sometimes it never patches up again. Sometimes life is just so blunt. Sometimes it isn't easy to love.
But always remember, everyone is different. Everyone may have faults, but they have good personalities too. From the conceited emperor to the poorest beggar to a hanged murderer. Sometimes it's life that forces us to do things that are sinful, but nothing can force us if we don't want to.
SOMETIMES I REALLY WANT TO GIVE UP. SOMETIMES I FIND THE HUMAN NATURE FULL OF GLOOM. But because of love, I don't. Everyone is different, and everyone wants to be happy. Don't hate. Start loving.
Hate should never have existed. There is only one weapon to demolish it. Love.

Titleless.

2009-12-29T23:54:00.001+08:00

RUN. RUN. RUN! I HAVE TO RUN AND STOP MY STAMINA DROPPING BEFORE I GET DROPPED OUT OF CROSSCOUNTRY DAMNIT. ):
Oh and I heard Mr Chan's in charge of bball next year and not crosscountry. Lol I wonder if he's still in charge of ODAC? Haha omg I have to join ODAC! ):

Cannibal task

2009-12-28T20:12:00.000+08:00

cannibal task

Go read the above, it's hilarious!

When i say jump you say how high.

2009-12-27T23:20:00.003+08:00

Today went out to meet my mum at 5.30pm at Yew Tee MRT station. Yeah then went to cut my hair. The bangs are very ugly, seriously I look like a clown please don't laugh at me when you see me thank you very much. And I think my hair is way too short but my mum says it's okay. Had dinner at Kopitiam or something, bought some Mr Bean pancakes and went home.

We went to Optical 88 at the Clementi central to get my new specs. Took a long time trying the specs on and couldn't decide on one. Finally I picked a light blue half-framed one but mum said it was too expensive and not worth it. Then the shop was about to call it a day so we went home first, deciding to go back another time.

I want the light-blue half-framed specs! ):

Anyway my uncle visited and gave me an armrest which actually looks more like a toy dog. It was so adorable I couldn't bear to use it so I named it Jolie and keep it. Thanks uncle! Anyway I wrote this post in haste so pardon me if there are any grammatical/punctuation/spelling mistakes. Okay bye.

Hankyung wants out of SME because of SNSD?

2009-12-27T14:21:00.011+08:00

SUJU Hankyung wants out because of SNSD?
Actually it seems rather believable to me. I wouldn't be surprised if SNSD was behind all this. They already have a history of poor attitudes (the Dream Concert last year?). Well there might be a grain of truth in it.
TVXQ'S Changmin in contact dispute with SME?
This totally misled me, I got so happy for nothing. How I wish that HoMin would join the dispute... and then the five of them could be together.
Jang Geun Suk the original Goo Jun Pyo
Lol obviously Jang Geun Suk is better. I bet he would have made a better Goo Jun Pyo.
Is Hankyung's contract termination request a publicity stunt?
Let's hope it is a marketing scheme. But I fully doubt so. It's starting to turn chaotic. ):
A.N.Jell reunites for a live perf
I want A.N.Jell to debut as a real band! (:
Jang Geun Suk's mom likes Park Shin Hye
Damnit they would be the cutest couple ever lol if they really got married.
Best dressed celebs
Omg haha Geun Suk oppa! Eh Hyun Joong and Shin Hye are in there too ;)
G-Dragon criminal investigation underway
All because he performed bed scenes at a concert and 12 y/o kids happen to be there? Wth, ridiculous.
2PM Taecyeon scarlet letter
Wtf?? That girl's out of her mind. She belongs to the asylum.
Seunghyun attacked in SG?
Woah, even though I don't like him, I approve of the way he tackled the situation.. (:

Why are there so many kpop scandals and issues this year? Oh dear I hope next year would be better.

Baby, we keep the faith eternally.

2009-12-26T00:47:00.013+08:00

HAPPY TVXQ 6TH ANNIVERSARY! :D
~~Will edit later, I am so tired, g'night.~~

The birth of five talents, which made a great impact on more than 800,000 people in the world. The creation of heartwarming, enthralling music was then born, as a gift for us. That gift was priceless.

There are some songs that are fuel to feed the masses. When a new song comes out by a new band it sounds fresh and entertaining. Then this song catches the attention of every radio station and is played frequently. Listeners swear they will tear their ears off if they hear it one more time. The artist is doomed to "one-hit wonder-dom." Otherwise the band is pressured to conform. They sell out and sound just like everyone else. But TVXQ was different, unique.

Their songs clearly show that they have pooled all their best, written for years, played countless times to perfect their craft. They were pure, sang by the five driven by a love, no, a passion, for music. There were difficult times, but they held on. They knew that giving up was not to be. They sacrificed their own feelings, for us fans. We knew they loved us, we knew they cared. And that was what made them so different.

They never slacked, never produced albums in haste, even though they probably were exhausted, and didn't even get enough pay. Their songs were always good, if not, better than before.

Six years have passed since their birth. These six years, they painfully struggled to set up their career and capture their fans' hearts. They did all they could to satisfy their company, and their fans. It's been difficult, right, oppas? No matter what happens, be it the world ending, there will never be a death of TVXQ. Never. Because we hold them in our hearts. All that matters is that they love us, and we love them.

And that we continue to keep the faith.

We still do.

Saranghaeyo, Yun Ho, the leader who has continually taken the responsibility of the group, cared for the members, and did everything you could to improve the bonds among the group. Jae Joong, the mother, who could always be counted on to care for the group in a meticulous and gentle way, the one who was always so deep, the one whose voice could do wonders. Chang Min, the baby whose UFO messages tickled us all, who is always watching and loving his fans through the messages that encourages them. Jun Su, Mr Sexy S-line dolphin duckbutt, the thoughtful one, the sweet one. Yoo Chun, the quiet yet understanding one.

Not one, not two, not three, not four, but five. The five we'll always love.
Always keep the faith.

I know that this is a long post. But if you love TVXQ I'm sure you'll want to read it. (:

Anyway, TVXQ's Christmas Messages!
from here
And my replies ;D Although they wouldn't be able to see it.

Jaejoong:
Everyone~!!
Merry X-mas ----
This year, have a warm X-mas too~
Thank you, as always^^

Merry Christmas, Jae Joong oppa! ^^ I'm cold, give me a hug? ):

Changmin:
Merry Christmas~^^
You must happily celebrate this year's Christmas with someone important to you~^^

With you? ;)

Junsu:
Merry X-mas~
This time, don't be alone.
But instead, celebrate happily with someone important!
It would be even better if you met Santa Claus~ ^.^

It would be best if I met you, ne? ^-^

Yunho:
Merry Christmas.
Everyone, in order to create wonderful memories this Christmas as well, celebrate it happily!
PS: I want to join parties too!!

Come to my party!! ;D

Yoochun:
How is everyone? Do you have lovers?
I am still alone... TT
But I am not feeling lonely at all.
Thank you all for your existence!
Merry Christmas.

I can be your lover!! >D

Okay, that's all. :D

Oh what fun it is to ride and sing.

2009-12-25T00:03:00.019+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL (:

Dear Santa,

I've been a very good girl this year, can I have some ... presents? ;D

All I want for Christmas is ... the world to be untroubled by needless conflicts, a close-knit family, happiness everywhere, less sins and sufferings on Earth, or possibly ... a world devoid of violence and torment? I hope that isn't asking too much of you (it probably is). Bring happiness to the whole world, will you? One last thing, Santa, do restore my father his good health. Thank you so much, and let 2010 be a fruitful and enjoyable year!

Sealed with a kiss from Yorksun.

I'm not a Christian, but who, pray tell, doesn't get caught up during this festive season? I'm positively enthralled for the arrival of the new year, albeit the difficulties I may soon have to face. Should I pen down my new year's resolution on paper, and bid the wind to carry it far, far away? Perhaps I should, although it's a little too soon.

I want to improve like crazy in Math. I want to be perpetually blissful! :)

The innocence of nature.

2009-12-23T23:50:00.005+08:00

Omg don't get why RV is so popular this year. Why not Nanyang or DHS or Hwa Chong? Lol, I should've chosen Nanyang last time, then I can continue wearing the Kong-hwa-style uniform. O:
And, I wonder if there are any ex-Konghwaiians-soon-to-be-Nanhuarians? I doubt so.

If a murder is committed to save another, is it a sin?

Mystery mystery.

2009-12-23T15:28:00.002+08:00

Tell me, what the meaning of life truly is? Why is it that humans jump at every chance of sowing discord, why is it that we have often overlooked the feelings of others and only aim for our goal, at any cost, even if it harms others? In this world, what is more important? Knowledge, status, money, appearance, popularity or love?
Is there even the slightest trace of humanity now? Why am I here, as a living human? Are we here to pay for our sins and past misdeeds, to rise into heaven? I have questions, yet no answers to them. Can you define life?

Could there, ultimately, be complete peace in the human world we live in?

Freezedom.

2009-12-22T15:07:00.007+08:00

Wtf la, my parents don't allow me to go to Singapore Plaza to see Jay Chou. -_-
Urgh, nvm doesn't matter. At least it's not like, DBSK or Super Junior or FT Island or Jang Geun Suk or something. Oh btw I forgot something. Yesterday at one of the shops 'Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer' song blasted out like, really loud. And it instantly reminded me of You're Beautiful LOL. Haha, and one of the sales assitant was very rude to the customers. It seemed like she disliked her job. I think she should just view it more positively and she'll be happy and she can bring smiles to customers too! Haha.
Rudolph the red-nosed reindeer~

Oh yeah forgot something else also. I saw Shen Le at Clementi when going to the MRT station yesterday. Or at least I think I did. Okay, no, I definitely did. But I didn't ask her for her contact! :( Hope we won't lose contact after she has graduated from NH. Haha.

Oh and btw 冬至快乐!

The best sound in the world is the breathing of your close ones.

2009-12-21T23:44:00.012+08:00

Went to a buffet with family today. The food was not bad, and I kinda ate a lot. Haha, feel sort of guilty now. After the buffet we went around shopping. Or rather my mum and I did. My dad went to browse books at Times bookshop. I saw Singapore Plaza and omg there were pictures of Jay Chou all around for his new movie The Treasure Hunter! There was this trailer and damn it his voice was so amazingly powerful that it melted me. :D
Bought some clothes and I bought 2 FBTs, the non-transparent type coz I don't really want to wear those skimpy ones. Bought some pancakes at Mr Bean for dinner and the cheese ones were really delicious when they're hot. Okay anyway so I really can't get Jay Chou and his soothing voice out of my head. Anyone interested to watch The Treasure Hunter? There seems to have quite a lot of wars and such, though. But there's romance with Jay Chou involved hahaha!
When he comes on the tomorrow I'm so going to stalk him. (:
Oh and I haven't bought my new specs yet. What colours would be nice? Black looks too geeky for me, white too weird and I don't like red specs. Or yellow for that matter. Maybe I should consider orange. Hmm. Okay going to sleep soon. I'm trying like hell to kick my burn-the-midnight-oil-to-surf-the-net habit.

人生哲理

2009-12-20T20:26:00.004+08:00

美满的人生，不在物质、权势、名利及地位，而在人与人之间的关爱与情谊。人生就像走钢索舨，如果不认真往前看却一直往后看，一定会跌下去。人生几十年的成就，都是由每一天的言行累计而成；所以，要照顾好每一天的言行。修行贵在身体力行，说一丈不如行一寸。
人生最大的敌人是自己；人生最大的失败是自大；人生最大的错误是放弃；人生最大的财富是健康；人生最大的债务是情债；人生最可怜的性情是自卑。

觉得周杰伦的一些歌词挺好的。
1) 也许时间是一种解药，也是我现在所服下的毒药。- 彩虹
2) 最美的不是下雨天，是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐。- 不能说的秘密
3) 翻着我们的照片，想念若隐若现，去年的冬天，我们笑得很甜。- 借口
4) 我送你离开千里之外你无声黑白，沉默年代或许不该太遥远的相爱；我送你离开天涯之外你是否还在，琴声何来生死难猜用一生去等待。- 千里之外
5) 希望他是真的比我还要爱你，我才会逼自己离开。我真的没有天份安静的没这么快，我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你。- 安静

啊，语文的魅力！

Forever the existence of love.

2009-12-19T14:26:00.002+08:00

I think the way 梁文音 sings resembles Stephanie Sun a lot. If there wasn't a varied difference I'd think 梁文音 was actually imitating her style. But her songs are nice, haha. I like 愛一直存在. Okay, anyway, I've changed my blogskin and I absolutely love it. :D
I think I'm not changing it for at least a few months. Gonna get a pair of new specs later. (:

The leaf gathers your smile gently.

2009-12-17T11:59:00.007+08:00

School is going to start in about 15 days' time. And I have such mixed feelings about it! I just hope that things will be smooth and sweet. I'll miss Mr Foo and his funny speeches, as well. I don't think much of the new principal, heard that she's very much results-oriented. But all the same it's an honour for Mr Foo coz it's a promotion. We'll all miss him though.
I'm really starting to worry a great deal about my Math. If I don't do anything as of now, I'm probably not going to understand whatever the teacher is talking about whilst the others are slogging away. Damn, I need to catch up.
I want Mrs Tan (HT) as my Math teacher, Mrs Chang for Physics and JT for PE (coz the other teacher would be Mr Quek, that's what Mr Chan said)!
Good teachers + good students = good results.
*looks in the mirror* No way am I a good student! *looks up and down* Such a vast difference from 'good' students. ):
Whatever I should just stop worrying, shouldn't I? :) I can do this. Next year I'll work hard and play hard!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAEJIN OPPA <3
Damnit posted a day earlier. Lol.

Sing this lie that's halfway mine.

2009-12-16T12:27:00.004+08:00

I'm bored and I don't want to do work! ): But I have to. Sheesh.

Embrace the cool breeze.

2009-12-15T20:28:00.006+08:00

Was bored, so decided to tackle some quiz questions to chase the boredom away.

Quiz
1) What is/are your favourite:
Food(s): Spaghetti w/ mushroom cream, Mac's McSpicy burger, cheese fries.
Drink(s): Ice coffee, strawberry bubble tea.
Desert(s): Mint chocolate ice cream, fresh fruit.
Colour(s): Anything.
Subject(s): Chinese, Physics, Literature.
Type(s) of books: Horror, Romance, Friendship, Fantasy.
Snack(s): Mentos sweets. (Pure mint only thank you.)
Sport(s): Running, swimming, basketball.
Animal(s): Dogs, horses, cats.

2) This or that?
Money or Trust: Trust.
100 friends or 1 best friend: Idk.
Basketball or Football: Basketball.
Nike or Converse: Converse.
Pasta or Pizza: Pasta.
Chocolate or Candy: Candy.
Loud or Quiet: Quiet.
Math or English: English.
Music or Athletics: Athletics.
Honesty or Filial piety: Both.
By air or by sea: By air, but I would rather not travel coz I'll get nauseous.
Twilight or Harry Potter: Harry Potter.

3) What do you think about:
Sports: Fun, healthy hobbies to kill boredom :D
Hate: I don't want to talk about it.
Love: Everyone should love one another.
Art: Is boring to me.
Singapore Idol: is boring and nothing really comes out of it.
Barack Obama: Huh how random. I think he's okay, I guess.

4) Music:
Language preferred: Korean/Japanese.
Genre: Pop/Rock
Taylor Swift or Lady Gaga: Swift.
Metal or rock: Rock. Metal's ew.
Fast or slow: Both are awesome.

5) What do you like about yourself?
I'm nice, yay.

6) What do you dislike about yourself?
I'm selfish, hot-tempered, easily addicted, got no self control, lazy, makes excuses often, has too many bad habits. ):

I'm still bored.

준수오빠, 생일축하합니다!

2009-12-15T11:42:00.042+08:00

happy birthday kimjunsu!

준수오빠, 사랑해요!
JUNSU OPPA! I wish you eternal happiness! :D
Stay happy, stay strong. I love you. Fans will always be behind you in whatever you do! We believe in DBSK, we believe in you! Happy birthday, MR.SEXY S-LINE DOLPHIN DUCKBUTT! xD

Knocked over by a virus.

2009-12-14T16:45:00.006+08:00

I'm down with the flu and I've got a serious headache and that was two days ago. I've recovered slightly (enough to come online for an hour or so before my headache works up again!). Being ill is terrible. Damn, I've never been one to have excellent health and I can't stand even the slightest bit of ill health. Such a weakling, me. :(
生病比死亡还残啊！Though I'm exaggerating, hee. Anyway it feels good to take a break from using the computer but all the same it feels great to be back typing!
OH YES. SAENG IL CHUK HA HAMNIDA ONEW OPPA! :D
I remember how we used to watch Shin Chan shows after a hard day's work during Chinese lessons in primary 5 and 6. I miss those days, I really do.
This came into my mind when I saw this blogskins thread about the death of Shin Chan author. Or I would say, creator.

Timeless.

2009-12-08T23:54:00.005+08:00

The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it. - W.M. Lewis

Had a little tiff with my parents, hardly unusual however. I'm just tired. I don't like it when they nag, I know they mean well but I get stressed and tensed up when they nag. Do they actually think that things will be better like that? Hardly so. Maybe it's hard for them to understand who I am now. I've kinda changed a lot, and they probably have trouble accepting the new you. But it isn't just them. I don't like the new me either..
Seems like I get over being upset fast. Maybe that's because I don't really see any point in crying over something and not trying to improve the situation.
Anyway, blogthings is kind of addictive. It's fun and there are really interesting answers! Like the food types etc which gets me drooling. :D
Oh btw, don't use your favourite songs for morning alarm tones - you'll kinda dislike/ get bored of the song after that. I'm slightly bored with Ring Ding Dong after using it as my alarm ringtone for about three days, haha!

Shirt emergency!

2009-12-08T17:16:00.003+08:00

I need the shirt desperately! ): I need it by the airport welcoming session! D<
Wearing a yellow shirt ain't enough, I NEED THAT FAN SHIRT *point below* *frantic scream*

Cassie Elfie Cassie Elfie.

2009-12-06T16:00:00.011+08:00

from primanoona @ wordpress
I want this shirt! But sadly, the order is already over. I want it! :(
Anyway, yesterday's DBSKSuperJunior outing was super. We had lots of games and fun, haha! And I met new friends. I gained confidence too, and I also realised that life isn't that bad! Hahahaha, I think I killed two birds with one stone but now there's another bird to kill. Its name is Math.

Blogthings just told me that I come across as confident and serious, and that people may wrongly think I'm stuck up and shy. How much more accurate can that get? :/

2009-12-05T00:20:00.001+08:00

You Have Low Self Esteem 76% of the Time
You tend to blame yourself when things go wrong, regardless of whether it's your fault or not.
You're anxious to please others and rely too much on their opinions. Learn to please yourself first, and your confidence will soar.

^ That's what blogthings told me and it's really accurate. I want to be more confident! ):

2010 Sec 3 Class Allocation results

2009-12-04T14:19:00.006+08:00

I'm in class 310. First of all, my register number is 14 (yes I went to calculate lol) which I dislike because from both primary and secondary schools, I've had bad experiences of that particular register number. Secondly, Mrs Chang most probably teaches 311 (she has been for many years) so she won't be my physics teacher. ): And all the while I was thinking that if she wasn't my physics teacher my physics would probably suffer. Last but not least, boys domination. 16 girls only, gosh.
But on the whole, things turned out pretty fine. Truth is, I like 310 more.
I just hope the next two years wouldn't mirror the past years.

Kiss the baby sky.

2009-12-03T23:47:00.000+08:00

I'm afraid..

Insomnia.

2009-12-01T03:36:00.026+08:00

Took 4 different quizzes on blogthings and realised that a lot of the results were pretty accurate.
Mild mannered, difficult to offend you, quiet, lazy and unwilling to work at anything, often get stuck in a rut, too dependent on others, tend to remember what you hear, your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet, your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports, tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

I didn't know that blogthings quizzes could be so precise. It's so accurate that it's kinda freaky, haha! And yes, I do realise that posting at such an unearthly hour (it is 3:35am now) is strange.

*splutters and rubs eyes* I am finally awake and it's now 7:04am. I didn't sleep a wink at all though. Anyway, I was browsing through facebook people, and I realised that several of my friends have changed - some for the worse, but most for the better. And what made me really nostalgic was that most of them had their own friends from their schools. What was past is past. 6/2 in Kong Hwa can never return to what it used to be. Everyone has their own friends, they aren't going to bother about 6/2. What we are. Or what we used to be. Gradually, I discover that 2007 was the year which I had the best memories, and I realised and felt the absence of the school, the classroom, the teachers - and most of all, the class itself...
I am now looking into a microscopic image of 2 years ago, details vividly forming in my mind. I have photos. Photos which portray childishness and love and the innocence of our young, unblemished souls. Perhaps I'll bring those memories with me into the near future. Even as time starts to fade away, I won't forget those times. The best times ever, albeit not all of us could get along well with one another. But those times were... unforgettable. Because true friendship probably exist only in childhood days.

Flying across an ocean of time.

2009-11-30T17:59:00.004+08:00

Stars, rabbits, pigs, hugs, songs, farewells, tears, smiles, laughter, love. Most of all, courage. The drama "You're Beautiful" is the best drama ever in my opinion. Maybe mere words cannot completely sum up my feelings about it, but sometimes... sometimes words aren't essential. It is the most hilarious drama ever, but in the midst of sourness, there is a tinge of sweetness. And the name of that tenderness is love. Pure love, love that would allow leeway for sacrifices and even though that love is not mutual, to be able to brush that thought aside and be happy when he/she is happy.
That just about sums up Taekyung, Shinwoo and Jeremy. All who made sacrifices for Minyeo. :)
This drama has a good storyline, good tension and cute scenes, which is why it is so popular. Oh, and of course, not overlooking the cast, the hotties! <3

Psychotic.

2009-11-28T13:07:00.002+08:00

Top PSLE student is from China and according to the news, she only knew two words when she came to Singapore - "hello" and "goodbye". Hmm but she speaks without a single trace of accent. But I admire her determination, haha. (:

I wished I had worked harder then, maybe I could've won Keefe or something, lol. Maybe even Ang Jie and Chng Jin. Okay maybe not lol. :D

Kong Hwa juniors, we're proud of you for working so hard! I want to go back there soon! But somehow, (is it just me?) no one else seems that thrilled or enthusiastic anymore about 6/2 outings...

Pentagon of affection.

2009-11-27T16:34:00.005+08:00

Koped this from Alissa's blog, credits to... facebook?
I removed some pretty much redundant questions though.

Who's the cutest couple you know? Tae Kyung and Mi Nam (Nyeo) LOL.

Is there someone you wish to call your boyfriend/girlfriend right now? Tae Kyung? Shin Woo? Jeremy? :D

What job could you never see yourself doing? Doctor.

When I'm around someone I like, I... have brain freeze. Heartbeat increase. Body shiver.

Where is the person you like right now? Korea. (lol)

When you have a crush on someone do you keep it a secret? Most of the time, yeah. Walls have ears.

Can you ice skate? Wish I could, haha!

Five Things That You Find Extremely Disgusting/Irritating
1. Sneaks. // 2. Fake people. // 3. Insects. // 4. Slimy stuffs. // 5. People who always insist that they're right.

Five Things That Would Make Your Perfect Day
1. Meeting DBSK. // 2. Chatting with DBSK.// 3. Physical touch with DBSK. // 4. Have DBSK smile at me. // 5. DBSK's autographs.

Five Names Of People Who Always Cheer You Up
1. Yun Ho. // 2. Jae Joong. // 3. Chang Min. // 4. "Tae Kyung" // 5. Hong Ki or "Jeremy"

Ticktockticktock goes the clock.

2009-11-26T14:07:00.006+08:00

"You're beautiful" is the best drama ever. I love all the three guys, god wouldn't it be awesome if they really were a band! :D Jeremy is cute but I like his character the least, hahaha! JOLIEEE! ~ Hmm, Shinwoo is really nice. Tae Kyung seems very mean but he has a hidden sweet personality.
Though I kinda wish that the girl will end up with Shinwoo because he's really sweet and kind.

Oh yes and the PSLE results are released today. I remember two years ago, albeit not the same day, the happy tears, the pats on the back, the bears we received as souvenirs, the hugs, the praises and the farewells. I cannot forget those wonderful moments, the times we were all together. KONG HWA PRIMARY, I MISS YOU. Every part of you, every single piece of you, every little moment, made up my life as a whole. If only I am as happy as I used to be. If only.

I guess if I go back to the school now, everyone would be really disappointed in me. I'll work hard for Kong Hwa. :D Even if I'm not exactly happy now. But I'll work hard all for Kong Hwa. I won't disappoint Mrs Tan and the other teachers. (:
I really miss you, Kong Hwa. I can remember the lessons, the fun we all had even though there were conflicts. Time has flown too fast. But the memories of KHS will forever be secured tightly in my heart.

You're beautiful.

2009-11-25T23:03:00.002+08:00

One more month now, yet I have not done anything. But I shall start now. (:
I think Math and I don't bode together very well. On the other hand, Hong Ki and ice cream bodes together awesomely! :D
Yes short post. Neil Gaiman's books are really incomprehensible. Either that or I'm no good at literature..

Happy endings?

2009-11-24T22:15:00.002+08:00

Am I shrouded in dreams?

How I wish I lived in storybook world. I envy everything that happens in storybooks, unlike reality they consist of humanity...

Short post because I find it useless and hardly interesting to type out a nonsensical why-storybooks-are-better-than-reality post. Pointless, really.

41 Clementi Avenue 1

2009-11-20T16:45:00.003+08:00

41 Clementi Avenue 1 by Wanling, Yafei, Dongyan, Sooche, Kimberly, Tseyen and me. :D

金文泰路四十一号那里就是我们最初的邂逅
就在你成长的时候一路陪我一起走无法忘记你的所有

食堂的AUNTIE和 UNCLE 总带着和蔼的笑容
依旧记得你常常喜欢吃冰棒配可乐
吃完午餐了之后我们到厕所坐一坐想着南华超级干净的厕所

回到课室有冷气吹外面再热也不怕会热过头
每当考试来临时候啃书啃到三点钟因为我怕会不及格

时间从指缝间流过流到了毕业的时候
走到了离别的路口回头向你挥挥手
回想上课的时候觉得过去非常轻松
喜怒哀乐怀念的校园生活
多年以后又再相逢我们都有了各自的生活
问一声我的朋友梦想是否还依旧
是否想念曾经所有

人生的道路再坎坷由我陪你一起走
手牵着手直到永久我的朋友

Adapted version of 细水长流 by 梁文福.
The Chinese Contemporary Music course was really fun and the lessons had vivid details about chinese music cultures and their styles. At the end we were supposed to do three things - a 500-word essay, a powerpoint presentation and a survey.
I kinda wrote too many words for the essay, about 1500 words, haha. Anyway today was laughing day. Laughing lunch hour? Haowei kept laughing, Sooche followed him and laughed and then the others looked at them and burst into laughter. o.o Thanks Shihan's father for the car ride! xD
Finally I can breathe without camps and illnesses and courses weighing down on my energy and time. I can start running and concentrating on my Math. Just bought next year's books today, sadly Literature's Off Centre and Things Fall Apart are out of stock. But omfg, the Physics book is amazing. Breathtakingly amazingly fabulously fantastically brilliant. :D But the A.Math book is super huge, damn. It's even thicker than the Physics/ Chem ones..

Anyway, this is kind of late but that's because I never really had the time to post during the past two to three weeks. Thanks to all those who cheered me up when I was down, listened to me vent my feelings, gave me a hand when I needed love, and also to all teachers for constantly guiding me with patience and encouraging me to be more confident about myself. Especially 黄老师 for your encouragement and telling me to be more optimistic about life. I can't thank you all enough.

The little ironies

2009-11-18T22:30:00.003+08:00

Just realised that my cbox has expired, bear with it for a little while, it'll be back soon. Anyway, today was fun! We're going to perform our mtv tmr, haha. I bet someone will laugh!

Anyway I love Mandopop (?) a lot now, probably on the same level as my love for kpop? I've been so busy during the holidays, when can I have the time to work on my Math? What's more, I haven't been running for so long I feel I've somehow let myself down :(
I want to run. Saturday's free, yay!

Happy birthday Glenda!

2009-11-18T00:00:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday, Glenda. Saeng il chuk ha hamnida! :D
Thank you for accepting me, and being the only person in the class I could confide in. Although we'll be separating for our own paths next year, the memories we have, I'm sure will suffice. Thank you, and enjoy your birthday even though Junsu didn't come! (:
Goodluck for your studies too alright! ;D Must jiayou already, don't slack! O levels are around the corner :P

May your path through life be a fruitful one.

Fragments of my heart.

2009-11-16T23:34:00.003+08:00

After camp, I fell ill with common flu. I've recently recovered but there is now a course and I have neither the time nor energy to go running. I guess I'll have to catch on my stamina in December.
Anyway... I think I've really got a chance to be a singer. Nothing's impossible! I shall fly after my dream and catch it. Okay it's late and I don't know what to say so bye. (:

Point of view?

2009-11-12T19:27:00.002+08:00

Which way can you see the dancer turning?

A question I've came across many times but always failed to understand why people can see the dancer turning counter-clockwise. Who can see her turning counter-clockwise?

Wrap me up in dreams and death.

2009-11-11T20:28:00.004+08:00

Dark eye rings, skin problems, dirty teeth, putting on weight (12 kg in the past two years), health problems, appalling results.

Those who used to look up to me now looks down on me. Because I'm a failure. A yet another victim of the computer.

Something that I've realised, after these two years, was useless and worthless. And yet if I don't use it I'd feel like there's nothing else I could do. Why, oh why had I ended up in this state? I believe I used to be one of the best. But now, the rock bottom awaits me.

Nonetheless, I shall undo this mess which I've created. But I cannot lessen my parents' pain and hurt watching their one and only child falling prey to addiction. I can never, never forgive myself for that. How I wish I could just click on ctrl-z in real life! But no, dreams and reality are two different things. Closely related, but different. I want to change, to get out of this fiasco which I've created. Despite the pains, I'll not give up. Because giving up isn't an option. Wasn't one, will never be one. There's no use asking myself "Why hadn't I the determination to end this before?"

Let me turn back, take the other path in life, and seek my dreams. Even if no one believes in me, even if none would shower love upon me. I'll never be lonely again if I learn to befriend myself. Friends? I don't have them, but I want them and thus led myself to self-destruction. Family? I have them, always, but I never cherished them. I regret.

Friends? Family? I'll take the latter.

November 11. A date to remember, because I'll finally take action. Not just the words of emptiness I've been saying every day, not the promises which I broke, not the wishes I never did achieve.

Genie light your lamp.

2009-11-11T11:01:00.004+08:00

I wonder. If I'm to be granted 3 wishes, what would I spend it on? What about you?

I believe I like Chinese a lot less after my reason for having loved it dissipated. My love for English has redoubled by a great deal, yet my love for Chinese has completely disappeared. I loved Chinese, but now it merely is another subject I have to cope with. Why?

Shattering fragments of my soul.

2009-11-10T23:13:00.013+08:00

"Friendship, is like a violin; the music may stop now and then, but the strings last forever." -anonymous

I'm on the verge of recovering so I should really stop using my flu as an excuse not to study. Math irks me so. On a lighter note... no, wait. That's an understatement. Guess what? Though it's yet to be comfirmed, XIAH JUN SU IS COMING TO SINGAPORE! :D
I hope they confirm it real soon. And if he does come, it will be on Glenda's birthday! Oh my, do I seem jealous? You bet I am! It'll be the best birthday present for her if he does come! And probably the best present for me ever too though it isn't my birthday. (:

JUN SU WE WANT YOU! Wouldn't it be great if DBSK could come here as one? Please don't break up, the five of you completes my soul (and that goes for all cassiopeians). Should you separate, my soul will shatter and fall into five pieces. And so would the souls of 800,000 and more fans out there. I pray that our souls will stay fully intact.

The Fairy Reel.

2009-11-09T23:13:00.005+08:00

Neil Gaiman:
" If I were young as once I was, and dreams and death more distant then,

I wouldn't split my soul in two, and keep half in the world of men,

So half of me would stay at home, and strive for Faërie in vain,

While all the while my soul would stroll up narrow path, down crooked lane,

And there would meet a fairy lass and smile and bow with kisses three,

She'd pluck wild eagles from the air and nail me to a lightning tree

And if my heart would run from her or flee from her, be gone from her,

She’d wrap it in a nest of stars and then she'd take it on with her

Until one day she'd tire of it, all bored with it and done with it.

She'd leave it by a burning brook, and off brown boys would run with it.

They'd take it and have fun with it and stretch it long and cruel and thin,

They'd slice it into four and then they'd string with it a violin.

And every day and every night they'd play upon my heart a song

So plaintive and so wild and strange that all who heard it danced along

And sang and whirled and sank and trod and skipped and slipped and reeled and rolled

Until, with eyes as bright as coals, they'd crumble into wheels of gold...

But I am young no longer now, for sixty years my heart's been gone

To play its dreadful music there, beyond the valley of the sun.

I watch with envious eyes and mind, the single–souled, who dare not feel

The wind that blows beyond the moon, who do not hear the Fairy Reel.

If you don't hear the Fairy Reel, they will not pause to steal your breath.

When I was young I was a fool. So wrap me up in dreams and death. "

Chinese Cultural Camp 'o9!

2009-11-07T16:44:00.007+08:00

Jian Le, Raquel, Kar Hui, Beatrice, Amanda, Yu Jia, Kimberly, Annie, Siew Yi, Tse Yen, Sharon, Jovena, Ke Ni, Kina, Wan Ping, Joey, Xiao Tong, Iris, Wing Kwan, Krismin, Jazlyn, Xin Huei, Yi Ting, Jun Wei, Ming Jun, Elias, William, Qi Yuan, Paul, Chun Weng.
30 of the people who went to the camp. :]
I've either forgotten the rest or I don't know them, haha. Anyway, 耻组万岁! 南华万岁! The camp was heartwarming and despite our differences, we managed to work together as a huge team.
Yay we rock. (:

It's a long, long, long way down.

2009-10-28T14:27:00.002+08:00

Omg I love Neil Gaiman. His books are so enticing!
Oh and training today was good. Finally ran after such a long time, and I was pretty glad to find that my stamina didn't really plunge as much as I'd expected it to. Sometimes I feel that I dislike running somehow. Why does it feel so pressurizing? I have this love-hate relationship with cross-country/running. Maybe it's because my stamina is not as good as the others, but that isn't an excuse. The main reason? I don't really know. Sigh, in my heart of hearts, do I love running as much as I did before? I know not.
I am not 'damn good in running', or what all of you think. I'm terrible at it, alright? Please don't keep saying I'm 'omg so good la your running' because it's totally wrong. That's not the truth. Though I wish it is. But no, it isn't. Maybe it was, maybe. But not anymore.
The other classes were having fun skating all around the school (?) when we went around to knock on residents' doors and asked for books for donation. What fun.
I didn't feel like going to the chinese cultural camp, because I thought it boring. And also partly because of a reason which I only knew today. Now I'm filled with adrenaline (okay that's too exaggerating) to go. Because? .. :)
Thank you _ ! Hahaha. Okay, that ends this off. Oh, and I love Harper Lee's point of view. It's fascinating.

Pitch-black sin.

2009-10-27T00:42:00.004+08:00

The obvious contrast between reality and fantasy, yet the way they both connect to each other. It's strange how things work, really. Life is contradictory. Humans are too.

Timeless days.

2009-10-26T12:44:00.001+08:00

Good luck, Sec 4s! All the best for your 'O's! Study hard :)

... How time passes. To think that 2 years from now, we would be taking the 'O' level exams.

Don't say goodbye.

2009-10-25T22:28:00.002+08:00

After eons of exhausting my brain juices, I've finally decided on my subject combinations.
THE SCHOOL DOES NOT OFFER DOUBLE SCIENCE AND TRIPLE HUMANITIES. And I just realised that today. I'll try to appeal though. I want Chinese Literature.
This year was fruitful, albeit the stress and relationship problems. I'll miss Dr/Mr Foo, especially his well-known grammatical mistakes. One that I remembered most clearly was 'I want zero discipline!'. I thank my classmates for giving me the support I needed these two years. I'll miss all of you, especially the ones going to JCs. Hopefully, most of us can remain together for the next two years.
My teachers too, have constantly motivated me and helped to clear my doubts. I admit I haven't been studying much, being naturally lazy. I know, I have been a disappointment. But instead of giving up, I'll put in all my effort to pull up my studies. Even Math. Yes, especially Math.
I love all of you - we are puzzle pieces that fit into a whole.

Let me go.

2009-10-23T21:52:00.004+08:00

I welcome death. The cold solitude, the unconsciousness. It is a matter of courage and cowardice. Courage to live, cowardice to run away from it all. I cannot face reality anymore. Thoughts haunt me, too often, too deep. I have battled with these thoughts, for far too long, to no avail. It rendered me weaker, to a point where I could no longer sustain the battle. The resources dry, the manpower nearly exhausted, the victor is clear. I will lose, for I have always been. It had always been just a matter of time. I ought to have given up before.

I'm sorry.

I've been such a letdown.

Kiss From A Rose

2009-10-19T11:49:00.008+08:00

I have finally decided my subject combination, after what seemed like eternity. :)
I believe my choice is right, I will follow my heart, my passions. My first choice would be Physics, History and English Literature. The reason I don't want Triple Science is not because I'm worried I can't cope. It's because Science was never my forte, and I dislike it (with the exception of Physics).

I might want to take up Chinese Literature as a ninth subject, but I'm still considering. I'm interested in Chinese history! And the poems they have are like awesome. Oh, and I'm currently reading 'To Kill A Mockingbird' since it's in the syllabus for Lit next year. I had it for years but never really opened it. It's interesting!

Been spam-reading fanfics after EOYs ended. There were some really amusing ones, and some with a very dry storyline. Oh and of course, the r-rated ones! Erotic? But yaoi doings aren't my type I guess. I love yaoi fics, but not the rated ones... I guess they're just really weird to me.

[edit: 20oct] No, forget it. I'm still confused as to my choice of subject combinations. Sheesh. [/edit]

Love

2009-10-17T17:44:00.013+08:00

In life there will always be justice.

Frankly speaking, I believe that when you hate or despise a person, there should be reasons for that. I mean, no one goes up to someone else and says 'I hate you' for absolutely no reason at all. Not unless that person is mentally unstable.
It is a sin to cause harm to others, yes. More so if one had the intention. Yun Ho, I love you, for being so understanding and forgiving, to someone who doesn't deserve it.
You may hate a person, yes. There is nothing wrong with hating others, just that it destroys yourself and not the other party. You'll be the one who suffers instead. Even so, no one can use 'hate' as a reason to hurt others. I know how it feels. Being like any other person, I have despised someone before. But since I realised that hating someone is not only pointless, but energy-consuming, I have stopped hating her. I remember wanting her to get into trouble. I remember it so clearly, but I didn't actually carry it out because I knew it was wrong.
Ask yourself, why? Why do you hate DBSK, when they have done absolutely nothing to incur your wrath? Is it because you are a fan of another boy band, and perhaps it does not equal DBSK in popularity? Or do you just believe that love can be derived from hate?
It is really childish to do such acts. I don't know how to describe it in mere words, but He knows what you have done. It isn't a matter of who you do it to, because in this world everyone is equal. You'll be punished by God. Poisoning someone on purpose is definitely considered as a deliberately planned murder. What is the difference, then, between you and a murderer? There is none. You'll have this on your conscience forever. I am sure God will not forgive you for such a serious crime.
I believe in forgiveness, for those who are willing to repent and do understand what they have done wrong. But I cannot forgive one who still refuses to apologise and yet continues to insult Yun Ho even now. For your own sake (and others'), turn over a new leaf. Don't be selfish. I believe there is always a good side to all. Because He is always fair.
Oppa-deul, do not be upset by such words of childishness, they come not from a human but a devil. We, Cassiopeians, will always continue to support you. Those anti-fans will always be the minority. No matter what, we'll stand by you forever. Always keep the faith.
To other Cassies, I understand how you feel. I believe you would want revenge for what has happened. But harbouring even mere thoughts of causing harm to others is punishable by Him. I only hope that these people will change for the better.
P.S. I do know that this is a very late post as this happened in 2006. :X
I wish people can stop 'ABC person sucks, XYZ person sucks, this sucks that sucks'. Seriously? "Sucks" does not define anything.

There's no point in reading the above, it's just ranting against anti-fans. (:

Magic castle?

2009-10-16T14:07:00.006+08:00

I know my artistic skills aren't good, blah.
Anyway, we had this subject combination talk for sec 3s 2010. When I listened to the details, I was like stressed out? I really have no idea what to take, and being the indecisive person I'll probably make lots of changes and edits.
I wanted to take a 9th subject, but I'm not sure if I can cope. What's more, I'm not even in the top 150 so the chances I'll be selected would be very minimal, I'm sure.
There is only one reason I want to take triple science: it will look good when applying to JCs. If I don't take triple, it will reduce my chances of getting into JCs, especially when I very much want to go to NJC...
The teacher was speaking when he suddenly said "choose accordingly to your interests", and I was wondering "Should I?". I don't know. Yes, if I take Triple I won't be able to take Literature. Yes, I love Literature. Yes, I want to get into NJC. Yes, I want to follow my interests. No, I don't know what to choose.
I don't want to choose.

Class allocation... I'll just hope I have friends next year, that's about the best I can hope for. I want to be a significant part for once, participating in class activities. I want to contribute and play a part. I want to be happy.
Oh and I remember Mr Chan mentioning that next year we'll either be taught by JT or Mr Quek for PE. I want JT to teach us! I want Mrs Chang as my Physics teacher too. Kind of a 50-50, haha.